138.4 Woot Woot!

My current weight is 138.4! Rock on man. haha I don't know if it has anything to do with us moving or because we've been out of groceries for the past 3 days. Probably a mix of the two. We had a lot of shit left in our freezer at the old house that we were going to bring over here, but the electric company decided to go ahead and turn off the electricity at the old house 2 days earlier than we asked them to. Assholes. So everything ruined.

 Oh well... We got paid yesterday so it's shopping day! O_o I have a love / hate relationship with shopping day. I love spending money, but I hate walking around and dealing with idiots in the store. And because we recently moved, we will be shopping at a new store that we're not used to... so our first BIG shopping trip is going to be super fucking annoying. Allen and I have already decided we'll need vodka or something afterwards. lol Maybe before. who knows. 

I've got my treadmill out on the back porch right now.. there were tons of freaking spiders on it, and in it, so Allen has some work to do before we bring it into the house. I've already got a space for it and everything! 

So... a while back I did this 'adopt a soldier' thing and I'm pretty surprised at the response I got from the soldier I was assigned to. I sent him an email, telling him about my family and just let him know if he needed anyone to talk to, or needed anything while he was overseas, to let us know and we'd try our hardest to send him whatever it was. I've heard so many sad stories about soldiers over there not having family at home to talk to... or their family not having money or unfortunately, THE TIME to send them things from home. Anyways, so I got an email back a few days later... I'm assuming it was written by his wife... Just basically saying 'Thanks, but no thanks.' I can understand and respect that. No big deal. But why sign up for a program like this, if you don't need or want some help or support? Oh well... I'll see if I can't get assigned to another service member. 

Oh... anyone who reads this.. I'm an AVON rep now! You can order from my website and it'll ship to your house. :-D that's super cool right? I thought so too. I love the toys Avon has for kids! They last for such a long time and they're pretty well made. If you wanna take a look at my site... go here....

Steph's Avon Page!!!!

Happy 4th of July to everyone! (the 3 that read this... haha)

I'm So Over Moving....

Now look, I know I was all excited and crap about moving last blog update.. but now that I'm almost done doing it. It's for the birds. Allen and I have pretty much gotten everything moved over. All the big stuff anyways. I've had a glass lampshade shatter on my hand, which bled like a stuck pig! I didn't even notice I was bleeding till I saw random blood stains on my pants and shirt. Talk about pissed. Just before that, my treadmill decided to fall on top of me too... I also have a giant egg on my forearm.. how that happened?... I'll never know. I'm not sore from the lifting or anything.. but I feel like I've been hit by a truck man! All these bruises, bumps, cuts and junk hurt. lol I'm a big o wimp. I also dropped a stupid ceramic toothbrush holder on the top of my left foot. So thats awesome and bruised too. I can't really even put full weight on it. OH I might mention that ALL of this.. happened to the LEFT side of my body. My left foot, left knee, left hand, left arm... wtf man.

I'm done bitching for now about my owies though. Even though they're painful. So, NOW We have all this room and crap.. oh.. nope. there are boxes everywhere. I'm taking the day off though. This shit can kiss my ass. I'm tired. We started this on Saturday afternoon.. Cleaned ALL DAY LONG on Sunday since the previous renter was a nasty ass piece of shit who has no respect for others property. This is what we found just UNDER and behind the stove... 

can we say FIRE HAZARD?! 

fucking idiots man. 

End rant... 

Plus side... I haven't gained any weight. haha I'm down another pound thanks to this damn house work. 

Bigger and Better Things!!! Finally!

I've been MIA for a while... I know, I'm sorry. We've been busy as hell and there are some changes coming our way! 

(I'll get to the weight loss in a second. YES... WEIGHT LOSS.)

We've been in this 3 bedroom 1 1/2 since February of 2011. There are 5 people in my house. One bath tub is not cool. Especially when it's GROSS. Our landlord has let the bathroom *and plumbing* go for lord knows how long. It's probably the same tub that was put into the house in the 70's when this bitch was built. Gross. Would you like to see a pic of the new tub? 

OF COURSE YOU WOULD!

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?! 

I'll never be able to get the babies out of this! What the pic doesn't show, are the stone steps leading up to the bathtub. And the giant step in shower over off to the side. 

Our master bedroom is the size of my living room now. HUGE. 

Look... here is our soon to be dining room

Soooooo pretty. This is not my crap. These pics are from Craigs List... haha My stuff will look better! haha Off the dining room is Hailey's room and Ethan's room maybe... Haven't decided yet. 

The future living quarters. Off to the right in this pic, is the giant master bedroom and probably Jacob's room...

NEXT!

THIS is the outside of the house. NOT my car. I can't do small with 3 sometimes 4 tornadoes in my vehicle. 

I'm so happy we're going to be in something that's going to actually FIT our family, and we can afford it! THANK GOD. 

My bedroom is going to be so big that I'm going to be able to have my treadmill in there!!! AND it wont even be loud enough to wake up the babies at nap time because they'll be ALL THE WAY across the house!!!

The only bad thing,.. that is a lie, One of the TWO drawbacks... Our soon to be neighbors to the right thought it'd be cool to take down the privacy fence... I'm assuming because it was old.. or something, but they haven't put up a new one yet. But, that got us some $$ knocked off of rent. woot woot! The other drawback, is a big one, and I get really freaked out thinking about it so I'll touch on it, and leave it alone. 

The school in that area, has 4 out of 10 stars. They ranked WAY UNDER state average on testing with Math and Reading. SO, for now, I'll be driving Jacob across town to school. I REFUSE to let him go to that school. It's a DAMN shame too, because it's super close to the house. I don't care though. My kids education is super important to me. I really get just a horrible horrible feeling about letting the kids go there. We have 3 years to get our shit in order and BUY our own house, so I can keep Jacob OUT of Lee Jr. High. The tests scores there are hideous. Shit, we've actually thought about putting the kids in an Academy here. Tuition free. Then I wouldn't have to worry about what school zone I'm in. DONE. 

That school situation really makes me feel shitty. haha

OH and another awesome thing about this house situation... They're pretty much knocking off the deposit because Allen is going to help put in 2 new windows and we're going to help paint. WHAAAAAAT!?  Praise JESUS. 

Here is how it went down. I was scrolling through Craigslist, found this house, LOVED it, emailed him, set up a time today to see the house, saw the house with the guys wife... and 2 hours later, he called us saying that his wife REALLY liked us, and she didn't want him to rent to anyone else. It's just because we're awesome. :-D 

OK... weight loss time guys. This is what you came to read right? haha.

So. I weighed myself this morning. 141.2 was the lucky number today! I've been going to curves again.. I went 3 times last week. I've yet to go this week..but we've been busy. For the next 3 days Allen gets off WAY super late, so I may not be able to go. Unless, my lovely awesome mother who hopefully is READING MY BLOG will come watch them Thursday or Friday. ;-) 

Oh... Lea Anne took Allen to the Gym Saturday.. poor guy. hahaha

He threw up when he got home. And is still sore. :D Hes super excited about next time though. I told him he didn't know what he was getting into. Lea Anne doesn't play. LOL well... really going to the gym is probably like her play ground. She was telling me about some squats she does... on top of a damn ball... holding a bar. Sounds like a broken neck to me. 

Hopefully it wont be so long between posts... I'm not going to promise anything though. Especially when WE'LL BE MOVING THIS WEEKEND! woot woot!!! 

<3 

Isn't she a damn doll?! She'll have her own PRINCESS ROOM soon! 

New plans!

Good news! I worked out yesterday. Hard. I thought about pussing out and not using my little key chain thing, but I figured... wtf. I've been lazy and fat for a month or longer! Why start slow? No biggie though, I'm good. 

I have found that I'll need to do my back exercises before I go from now on, or maybe stretch a little better after I'm done. My back is sore this morning. ....

hmmm... Now that I think about it though, I did wear my moms "Similar to" As Seen On TV, Low Frequency Therapeutic Equipment. lol It's a knock off of the As Seen On Tv version of the Tens Machine. It isn't very powerful but it's better than nothing when I have a week between appointments. 

I forgot to mention, my chiropractor says I have Mild Degeneration of my T-3,4 and 5 vertebrae. The disk between my T3 and T4 is a LOT smaller than all of my other disks. I also have some awesome nerve damage in my back from a nerve being pinched for quite some time... uuugh! 

I'm only 27 damn it! lol Oh well.. tell that to Allen, who JUST passed his first kidney stone. I've never seen a man in so much pain. At least when I was having a baby, I had a epidural. lol poor guy. 

So.. I feel great about working out yesterday, I feel like I might be over my attack of the lazies. I'm even thinking about cleaning the garage as much as I can during the kid's nap today. I've also decided, that once Jacob goes to Austin to stay the summer with "his other dad" I'm going to walk the KOA most mornings with the kids in their double stroller. Walking the KOA with a stroller is tricky enough... a double stroller is double tricky. lol Its adding at least 55lbs to the walk up and down steep ass hills. Hopefully I don't let go of the stroller... they'd roll down a hill into the lake. 

*joking... the stroller would probably stop before the water.*

Oh more good news, I weighed and measured yesterday, and I've LOST weight (and muscle :( ) since last month. the weight I'm happy about... the fact that it's probably just muscle I'm losing considering my fat is the same, sucks. Time to start lifting again too! 

OH Lea Anne will be working out with Allen at the gym Saturday afternoon.... that should be interesting! :-D I hope she kicks his ass. haha 

He also grew an Amish beard in my hiatus. It's gone now though. O_o I liked it. lol

The title of the blog is new plans... and I didn't really cover anything.. my bad... My new plans are to 1. start working out again. 2. do my back exercises MORE 3. walk the KOA with kids. 

woot.

Gone Too Long...

It's been a very long time since my last word vomit session. A lot has happened and is going on still. Some of it is pretty damn awesome and exciting... :-D 

OK, so lets address the elephant in the room. I haven't been to Curves in a month. The last time I went, I got weighed and measured (gained a little). Here we are June 7th... I need to be weighed and measured again. Haven't done diddley squat since last month. As a matter of fact, I did everything I used to do before I lost weight to begin with. Eating horribly, or not eating all day long till supper time and then eating too much... I don't know what happened, or what clicked, but, I'm back. No more being a Lazy Lucy. I keep making the excuse that 'oh... my body just wants to rest for a while' well... a week would have been acceptable. Not 2 months. THAT is stupid. 

Here is something else stupid. I haven't started training for my Run Or Dye 5k yet. It's August 17th. I bought the tickets a good while back. What's going on here my friends is procrastination at it's finest. There is another "reason" for it though. Well... here are my excuses. 

First, my treadmill took a crap. The motor has done all it wants to do and now, I either have to sprint at lightening speeds, or walk super flippin slow. Neither of those choices fit into my routine. SO, My mom gave me her old treadmill. Awesome! It's even got incline and stuff, so I can use that too! .... Here is the second "Reason" I haven't started running...

My husband got Kidney stones on Mother's Day and has been either at work, or in pain since. Lies, there have been pain free days, but those are days we have to clean the house, or mow the lawn, or he's got side work in the garage that he's doing, or something else comes up. Anyways, I need him because I can't lift some of his crap in our garage to get the old treadmill out of the way to bring in the new old treadmill. He's a mechanic on the side, so his junk, is not light. I'm talking about motors and shit. 

Quick recap... 

Treadmill died!!! boooooooo....

Got a new old treadmill with incline! YAY!!! 

Husband sick can't move new old treadmill yet. boooooo!!!

I'm waiting for the next yay. He's got 4 days off coming up soon, and I know he's already got some side work scheduled but maybe he can squeeze that one small activity in. Too bad he doesn't read my blog. lol 

I'll start running soon. I'll only have to run in the garage for a little while too.. Jacob will go spend the summer with his "other dad" (his words) June 17th and while he's gone I'm moving my treadmill into his room so I don't have to run in 119* weather AND I can just put up the baby gate and let the kids play in their room while I run! No more being secluded to nap time. When really all I want to do for that hour is sit by myself quietly and do absolutely nothing. Just sit. In silence. 

Anyways, We dropped Allen's work insurance and got our own for 200$ less per month and all the deductibles are lower by about $1000 or more! Getting approved for it was a pain in my ass though. 

OH so Here is some more way exciting news. I've been going to a chiropractor for the past...few weeks at least. The numbness is GONE! I don't know if I had ever mentioned it on here..now that I think about it., but my mid back was killing me for a while. Around my right shoulder blade/spine area would burn like it was on fire and then go numb...for days. I've been getting adjustments 3 times a week for the past 3 weeks, and now I'm doing 2 times a week for 4 weeks. It feels amazing. I go in, Dr. Smith adjusts me, and then he sends me back for muscle stimulation :D THAT is my favorite part. For what seems like 20 minutes or so, I get to lay on my face, hooked up to a tens unit. At first, my muscle would hardly respond to the shocks, but now... oh man it gets sore. Dr. Smith even recommended me to get a massage to help with the muscle tightness. He also said he could write me a note to get out of doing dishes. Because it starts hurting bad when I'm doing them. :) I like his thinking. I wonder if it'd work for folding laundry too....

Well.. I'll be going to Curves today I hope... depending on what time Allen gets off work today, and I'll try to keep updating my blog again! I'm back on track guys!

*found some really good strawberry jalapeno jelly to add to my toast!*

mmmmmmmmmm

Getting Excited Again.... kinda!!

Brooke posted a link on my Facebook page today that got me excited. 

www.runordye.com

I'm very excited.

Right now it's scheduled for 8-17-13. 

However,...

I have a dr. appt coming up this Thursday and they're going to run lab work and do a sonogram of my woman business. I spoke to my Dr. for a while on the phone the other day and she has a few things that shes going to test for... and then I go in for a face to face visit April 30th to talk about what she has found and to go over what possible options are or what my treatment will be. All depending on what the labs say and what she finds in the Sonogram. So... the past few days have been shitty for me. 

I've been feeling like I'm going to pass out when I stand up, or bend over for too long. Then my head starts throbbing or pounding and I can hear my heart beat in my ears. I've also been short of breath just randomly. I almost feel like, there is something in my chest keeping me from getting a full breath of air. It feels like when you have mucus in your lungs or something but I can't cough anything up.. At random times throughout the day I get kinda shaky and crap too...Like when you're super hungry or something?... Sometimes I'd just had a meal or snack though. I don't know... I thought maybe my blood pressure was up or something so when we were at Walmart the other afternoon I checked it at the pharmacy area, but it was fine. By the end of the day, I always have a pretty awesome headache towards the back of my head. 

I was anemic while I was pregnant with all three of my kids, so that's one thing they're testing for. I'll elaborate on other stuff when I find out more. Prayers are always welcome though! haha

Anyways... Provided things are all taken care of before the date of the race... I'm going to run in it! I've already pre-registered myself and Allen. :) Another one of my friends Kambria may be running too.. and her BF Nick. We'll see though. haha.. Hopefully Lea Anne will have her foot feeling better by then and she can join! The race looks like tons of freaking fun and super colorful and messy! Just reading about it and looking at pictures and stuff made me get excited about running again. I just need to be able to do stuff without being out of breath. That'd be awesome. 

Nothing else to really update... I haven't gained any weight.. I am back down to 140... and It's stayed there for the past 3 days. I'm watching my portions and staying on the outside of the grocery store when shopping to try and stay away from super processed foods. My kids are still heathens, somedays worse than others.. I'm going to start trying to work out a little at home while Allen is off the next few days. He doesn't want me to do too much while he's gone just in case I pass out or something. haha... dork. I'll keep you folks posted. :) 

This was Easter. duh. 

Fuck my arms are fat. 

Me, Allen, and our 3 hams.

Hailey is such a brownie! Ethan has my skin tone. haha ghost white. 

Look an Egg! 

First time with Pop Rocks. hahaha! 

Easter bunny brought legos in Jacob's eggs instead of junk. He's a fan.

Full Circle... literally...

So... At this time last year I was at 187 pounds. As of today... I'm at 145. I'm not happy about it. Yeah, I've lost quite a bit.. but I'm getting too comfortable. I'm falling back into my old habits and it's almost like I don't care. But I do. I just don't have any clue where my motivation went. It's like... I ran that 5k in February and it said "Chunk deuce bitch.. I'm out." 

Well I'm not happy with where I am yet. I still have a giant freaking stomach that I want gone, I'm still flabby and not toned where I want to be. So.. I need to dig down into my fatness and pull out that skinny person I know is there. It's time to get back on track. Damn it. 

I've said that for the past like 3 or 4 blogs haven't I? I guess it's time to put up or shut up. 

Last year, in April I lost 10 lbs. I went from 187 to 177. Lea Anne said I'm supposed to work out with her 3 times a week now. LOL I'm not opposed to that though. It would help. I'm just scared of success I suppose. I need to stop drinking sodas. I have to get out of my comfort zone. Time to decide what's more important... the way I want to look, or that extra Mac N Cheese... or that Dr. Pepper. damn it! 

I'm downing water like crazy now, and am giving up sodas. They're the devil. I'm also sad to say, after my current jar of Nutella is gone, which will be soon.. It will not be making it's way back into my cabinet space. I sure do love that as a snack though. Apples with Nutella is the shit. I have found something to cure my sweet tooth though. Those Skinny Cow ice cream sammaches are freaking delicious. I look forward to them all day! haha 

pathetic. 

This is stupid. I will not keep ballooning up like a damn sea cow. Like the title of my post, I'm turning back into a giant circle. Nope! I've made a decision. I'm back on track.. Back to my measuring cups. I'm annoyed with myself even more than the last post. ugh.

Grumpy Cat makes me happy though. 

My 5 Minute Work Out!

I've found a work out that I like to do at home again! It'll shake things up enough where I think I'll keep doing it. I did it yesterday and I'm sore in all the right places. haha. Here is the link to it... 

Bad Ass 5 Minute Work Out!!

I'm going to add sit-ups to the routine just because I need to work on my belly. So, technically it'll be a 6 minute routine but I can live with that. I never thought a 1 minute plank would make me sore. But it has. My kids were trying to do the push ups with me, which made me laugh because they would get down on their hands and just put their heads on the ground. lol or just lower their hips and keep their arms straight. Silly kids. 

I'll be lucky if I finish this month at what I started at. Hopefully with this new routine added to the day, I'll break my plateau and lose a little for the month of April. I think last year, April was my 10 pound weight loss month. I'm not going to AIM for that, because that's a giant goal for me I think, but I'll settle for around 5. At least. We'll see I guess. I wish Spaghetti Squash would hurry up and come into season. ugh...

Short and sweet, but I've got babies to feed because they're cranky as shit and starting to get on my last nerve. Hailey is the biggest damn drama queen I've ever seen. 

Slight Bump in the Road...

I'm not happy with myself. I started off this month with a contest between Lea Anne, Brooke and myself and I weighed 139lbs. I weighed myself today... 143.5lbs. One word. Disappointed. 

I've worked really hard to get to where I am, and I've just been screwing around. I tell you what though.. I can see just how fast that weight can be put back on. Kinda like a wake up call in a way I guess. I need to start running again.. I have my new Ipod and everything and a new damn arm strap for it and shit and I haven't gotten on my treadmill since that stupid Funnel Cake 5k!! How lame am I?

I've got too much going on during the day. I don't have time during the kids naps because I have to eat lunch and then I have to work out before Jacob gets out of school. I can't when I get done working out because I can't just leave the kids in the house alone. Those are just a few of the excuses I give myself. Lame. 

LAME. 

I realize that it's only a 4.5 pound weight gain.. but thats a MONTH OF WORK DOWN THE DRAIN. and It took LESS than a month to put it back on. 

Bottom line.

I'm drinking my water again, I'm eating healthy again, I'm GOING to start running again, soon. and I'm going to start working out at home again. I feel lame. I don't like feeling lame. I'd be around 134 pounds right now if that 4.5 was a LOSS instead of a GAIN. 

It's time to get back on track. I've said that before, but I'm serious as shit this time. Fuuuck all the bullshit. O_o

this was me in 2011....

My son took this pic of me and my husband at the Abilene Zoo this past weekend. Where the hell did those boobs go man?

I don't want to look like that ever again. I wish I could win the lotto... A LOT of problems would be solved. I'd have a personal trainer.. Lea Anne... A chef...if she wanted the job, Lea Anne's wife Whitney.. and a family nurse.. Brooke. LOL I'd pay for all of their college and housing! Assuming of course I won like.. a few million. even if I won a few hundred thousand, they'd be debt free.. lots of people would dang it. 

I can't start talking about the lottery... lol I have all my plans mapped out. Now, I just need those damn planets to align just right for me. ugh....

K... I've vented enough. Starting off the morning with a tiny cup of coffee, some egg whites and turkey bacon. yay.

The Plateau.....

So, I'm pretty annoyed with myself. I've lost little to no weight in the past 2 months. I know I only have myself to blame, but it's not going to stop me from bitching about it. DAMN YOU FOOD!!!!

I'm starting my food diary again because I apparently can't watch what I eat by myself. O_o So far, I've had my normal cup of coffee, which is really like half a cup, and 2 slices of toast. Hopefully for lunch I'll have something good and healthy. I bought some apples, yesterday so maybe I'll eat something with yogurt and fruit and ... something else. ugh

I have been lifting my weights a LOT more than usual. My arms are sore so thats good. I need to get some heavier ones though, my 8 lb weights just aren't that heavy anymore. haha! I guess that's a good thing.

OK, so enough about the weight loss... Yesterday I took my almost 8 year old to the dentist for a "robot tooth" and a filling. He calls the silver cap a robot tooth.. I guess because it's silver. IDK.. but whatever. We got there and all was good.. We got called back and they took us into the room, Jacob climbed up on the chair and at this point, everything was still good. Then the dentist came in. Jacob had the little laughing gas nose thing on and I could tell he was a little... off.. He was talking to the dentist about stuff, and the dentist told him "ok, time to make the sugar bugs go to sleep." and that was it. Jacob started FREAKING out. He bit the dentist, so he told the hygienest lady to go ahead and do the fillings he needed and he'd come back in a few minutes when she was done and Jacob had a chance to calm down. So, she did her job, and did it well... Jacob didn't have any issues with getting the fillings, he was good the whole time. And then it happened again... The dentist came in. He sat next to Jacob and told him he was proud of him for doing so well with the fillings, and that it was time to put the sugar bugs to sleep so he could get his robot tooth. He told Jacob "open up big!" and Jacob did, and then he saw the slight glimmer of the silver syringe thing for the shot they give your gums to make your shit fall asleep.. and he FREAKED out again... bit the dentist again, and this time the dentist was pissed. I would have been too! But he said "ok, enough of this, I'm going to refer you to a pediatric dentist who can fully sedate him." and walked out. 

Yep... that just happened. 

My mom had told him that if he was brave, he could have a new Lego toy because she was going to be at Walmart while we were at the dentist. So I texted her asap and told her NO WAY on the toy. NO WAY. All I could tell Jacob at the time was 'I'm incredibly disappointed in you.'  That's worse on him than telling him anything about being mad. Then on the way home I told him he wasn't going to go to Granna's house either and he started bawling.... Then I had to tell him NOW because he didn't get the shot, he was going to have to get put completely to sleep.. and THAT freaked him out. He was asking me to call the dentist and try to let them do it again.. Nope.. I'm pretty sure they don't want to deal with him again. She was pretty reluctant to make the 6mo cleaning appt. I think I'm going to cancel it anyways and we'll be going to a new dentist. Allen and I use Twin Mountain Dentistry here in San Angelo and they're freaking awesome. I've never been so comfortable at a dentist. They're super gentile too. We'll see... Maybe between now and August he'll grow up a little more and stop flipping out about every little thing. 

So... to recap... I'm tired of being fat, so I'm doing my food diary again and my 7 year old acts like a 3 year old at the dentist. woot woot. Oh and this time change can kiss my ass too. Losing an hour of sleep is stupid.

Walked the KOA.

Brooke, Lea Anne, Whitney and I walked the KOA today. It was so much easier than I remember. Of course, I was about 55lbs heavier last time I walked it and was pushing a stroller with a 10lb baby in it. Still, I think maybe Tuesday morning I'll go out there and maybe...jog it...! We'll see. My mom found a pic from when we used to walk it before I lost weight... This is me from behind. 

This was taken May 18th 2011. DAMN!

I seriously look mighty from back here. Ooh... LeaAnne shared a pic with me today on FB that the San Angelo Road Lizards had taken of us at the 5k we did.. Pretty fucking awesome considering I had nothing from that day other than the little list of people I took a pic of. That, and my number that's stuck to my fridge. lol 

The first thing I noticed, was my boobs look like they're lopsided and floppin to the left. damn it. haha that and my pants look like I'm running in a skirt. Something has to be done about both issues. Soon.

That girl behind me, it was her first 5k too... and it was my goal to finish before her.. but 2 seconds after this pic, she sped past Lea Anne and I like she had turbo boosters on. I was sort of bummed out till I found some bagels... Then all was right with the world again.

I'm excited that I'm getting motivated again! I weighed and measured yesterday at Curves and I'm no longer considered "Obese". WOOT! My BMI or whatever is in the "normal" range. I'm pretty damn proud of that. 

Check this video out... and watch till 3:38 at least. His face KILLS me.

MS walk... and Other Junk

So.. I've been tanning lately. Which is stupid, I know.. blah blah, skin cancer.. blah blah... but lets face it, tan fat looks better than pale fat. While I know I'm no longer considered "fat" per-say .. I still see myself that way, and it's what I see that matters right now. Anyways, I tanned today for 10 minutes against my better judgement.... (Listened to my MOTHER!!!) and now my ass is "bed"burned. haha.. it sucks. I guess it'll keep me from sitting on my ass though. hah! 

April something I signed up to do an MS walk with Brooke and Lea Anne and My mom will be joining, she "says" we'll see. It's at 8:30 in the morning, so getting Brooke and my mom out and about that early will be interesting. It's on a Saturday, so I'll be taking my 3 demonoids. aka my children. It's only a mile walk, so They'll be fine. Speaking of my kids.. not my mom or Brooke. lol ;) I kid I kid. :) 

Brooke, Lea Anne, and I are doing a challenge...whoever loses the biggest % of fat in a month (starting yesterday) wins a t-shirt that will say something along the lines of "I got this shirt because I kicked ass" or something equally as funny. I'm sure between the 3 of us, we can come up with something killer. lol So far, Brooke has lost 2 pounds in the 2 days shes been on her stupid diet and Lea Anne has lost some retarded amount already... I might need to step it up. O_O damn it. Oh well... this was my idiotic idea to get me out of my lazy doldrums I've been in. I should have just started with something like,... hey, lets see if I can knock another 10lbs off this month.. noooo I had to go and start a contest with Lea Anne. LoL. ayyyeeee.

He Believes in me! lol

Tomorrow,.. I'm thinking about riding my bike to Curves though. It should be pretty, and Allen is home from NM so no worries on time restraints with kids and junk. I suppose we'll see how sunburned my ass is tomorrow.. because I'm not standing up to ride my dang bike. Nope.

Also, this weekend I'll be going to the good ole KOA to do some walking with Brooke and Lea Anne too. I used to walk that pretty frequently, but then I got lazy and it got hot so I stopped.. but I'm not talking, like, warm, it gets EFFING HOT walking out there. Especially when I had to push a stroller if I want to walk. Which was good exercise. Unless you're my mom,.. then it becomes an obstacle. haha Hopefully some day I'll be one of those girls that go out there and run that shit for fun. There are super stupid steep hills out there, so I don't envision that being any time soon, but I'd like it to happen.  I'd also like my arms to magically get toned. These meaty hooks are getting annoying. All I see is flab flab flab when I look at them. O_o I think I am way over critical of myself though.. Like, maybe I don't really LOOK as bad as I THINK I look... I don't know. eh... I still want them to have definition. 

I hadn't updated in a while so I figured I'd get on here and lollygag and put something about something. My wedding ring already needs to be re-sized... which is kinda cool. My fingers ALONE have lost 2.5 sizes. I think I'll take the advice of my friend Aubreya and get a spacer on it until I'm where I want to be, THEN get it sized, because it takes Kay Jewelers a good 3 freakin weeks to get that crap done, and by then, I could be another half size down! 

Can you believe I already have the tattoo itch again? I've got big plans guys... My mom is going to hate them.  (sorry....) but I love them. Brooke and I have been friends for going on 21 years, and what better way to celebrate that than to get a "friend" tat. We're thinking some roses or something. Also, I want either a dream catcher or a peacock on my other shoulder, and I also want a sea horse somewhere.. I'm picky with the placement because I want to be able to look at them. I don't get tattoos for OTHER people to look at, I get them for me to look at, and I just don't feel that I'll be able to enjoy say, a back piece. However, I'm terrified of getting them on my thighs. That shit looks painful. Also, I really love the idea of a foot tattoo, but I'm scared to death of that too. My feet are bony. 

Welp... I guess I'm done on here for now... I'll post again after this weekend is over possibly... 

Oh, good news, I'm down to 139... bad news, that's down from 143 on 1/31/13. I've gotta kick it up a few notches  if I want to win that damn challenge. (BAM!....Emerill reference... couldn't pass it up.)

New Ink!!! Who Needs a Dooney?!

So, I was going to reward myself with a new Dooney and Bourke purse after the Funnel Cake 5K, but instead... I decided to celebrate my weightloss, and 5k goal by getting a new damn tattoo! I FREAKING love it. Thats an understatement. It's amazing. I knew it would be because the guy that did it is fucking AWESOME. Got it done at Trufant Bros. tattoo here in Angelo.. by Aubrey. He did my very first tattoo about 7 years ago, and it still looks brand new and I still get compliments on it.

 Here is my new edition......

It took a little under 3 hours for him to do, and it didn't hurt NEAR as bad as I anticipated. I can't wait to get another one already. O_o Sorry mom. 

I'm not super thrilled with this pic though I have to admit... My arm looks a lot more meaty than I'd like. Time to start toning again. I've seriously slacked off a lot since running the 5K with Lea Anne... I've actually only gotten on my treadmill ONCE. yikes. I'm getting a little lazy again. Lame. 

Speaking of Lea Anne... she's been down in the dumps this past week due to some bullshit Chemistry professor she had run three 5ks in 3 weeks!! Anyways, she ended up pulling every muscle in one of her feet and might not run again for a while. :( I feel like that would be equivalent to someone telling me, I couldn't listen to music anymore. Running for her was a big deal... but I hope she knows it didn't define her. She's an amazing coach and an inspiration to me still. I can PROMISE you that had it not been for Lea Anne, I wouldn't have ran that 5k. Her motivation and encouragement has been a big deal in my weight loss journey.  I sure hope she knows how awesome she is!

So.. Tonight my mom took Ethan and Jacob out to her place and is keeping them for the night.. THANK GOD. Allen has been in NM for work since Wednesday and when hes not here, these kids just run all over me like crazy. It's not like I don't spank them and junk, trust me I do. Today within the first 20 minutes of Ethan getting out of bed I had to spank him for yelling at me "I don't want it!!!!" that's his way of saying 'no' to me when I tell him to do something.. i.e. "Go to your room!!!" "I don't want to go to my room!!!" Sometimes he'll even slam his hand down on the coffee table or something.. Man hes a shit. Tomorrow shes taking Hailey to the mall, so she can get her nails did and go see the water fountains. That kid loves those water fountains. 

Tomorrow I'm starting my weights again. I need to tone up these arms... At least I don't look like this anymore!!!!

Where did my boobs go!? Look at that big ass tub man... I'm so glad I won that membership at Curves last year. Only a little weight left to get off this tiny frame, and I'll be good to go! <3

My First Race!!! 32 Minutes!!!

I ran my first race today! It was the 1st Annual Funnel Cake 5k. I ran it in 32 minutes! I'll be back next year for SURE. I just hope next year its a closed course and we wont have to run around horses and shit. Literally... shit. I didn't mind the smell of the animals so much, but that stretch with all the food carts and junk almost killed me. Nothing like the smell of bacon and grease to pump you up while you're trying to run. Oh.. If I haven't mentioned it yet, we ran at the carnival. They set up the course within the carnival area, so we were running past people walking, eating, drinking, whatever. 

I did NOT eat a funnel cake. I didn't want one, and to be honest, I still don't. I ate some awesome bagels though and that was enough. I'm just super stoked I finished. I did speed walk for a few minutes because it was WINDY AS SHIT out there and the dust and the head cold I'm already battling started getting to me. BUT I still finished! And I wasn't last! 

My number! 

Lea Anne ran with me of course and she kept my pace the whole time. She didn't even talk shit when I had to walk a little... she was just encouraging me and lying to me telling me we were almost finished.. I met her wife, Whitney for the first time today too, she's hilarious. She didn't run. She was smart and just clapped for us when we finished. :) They're both fun people. 

However.... I drove home and when I got out of my car, my legs basically turned to dust. Running for 30 minutes, and then sitting in a vehicle (with a butt warmer) for 15 minutes do not go well together if you need the use of your legs for, say, walking. I'm sure they'll get used to it. They better get used to it. 

Lea Anne is already telling me about a 5k Trail Race next weekend. I think she's trying to kill me. 

I'm going to be staying with my mom tonight... The landlord is actually doing something with our tub today. Not sure what hes going to be doing yet, but I don't care, he said it would be done today and that's all that matters. There are going to be storms and crap though, so instead of freaking out at home by myself, I'll go stay with my mom and freak out over there. I HATE storms. I start getting sweaty, and I pace a lot and get shaky... its crazy. Or maybe I am....

A Very Special Place...

I've been running on my treadmill to get ready for the 5k coming up TOMORROW, and let me tell you.. I have to go to a very special place in the corner of my head to do it. Not because its hard, but because my treadmill is in the garage, facing the wall, and next to a refrigerator. I used to have it to where I could open the door and see outside while I was running, but my husband decided it was in his way right there, and moved it. Check this shit out..

I've got my fan up high enough so I can feel the wind blowing on me... I usually have my water bottle up on the fridge so when I need a drink I just reach up and grab it. My husband is a mechanic so that's why there is tons of just...random looking shit on the fridge. lol (the fridge is stocked with WATER....and milk for the kids, but mostly water!) Anyways... that's my shitty treadmill and my shitty area. I ran for 30 minutes yesterday and hit 2.2 miles. woot! 

I was going to do what I had been doing, run for 5 minutes and walk for 1 minute, but I felt like I could keep going... so I did. I ran a full mile before I thought to myself.. ok i'll walk now. I remember when I first started to run, that shit was hard. I was trying to just bust out a mile no stopping, yeah, that sucked and was stupid. The run 5 walk 1 is a lot easier. I've noticed I'm able to run for longer periods of time now without wanting to stop. Which is cray cray. :) I never EVER thought I'd enjoy running.. but I think I'm starting to. Thats a foreign concept to me. I don't think I can call myself a "runner" yet... but I'm definitely a person that likes to run occasionally. haha! 

I personally think I have a super weird playlist of songs that I listen to while running... Here are the top songs on my list...

Rock Me Gently - Andy Kim

As Long As You Love Me - Bieber

One More Night - Maroon 5 

We Are Never Getting Back Together - Taylor Swift

One More Drink - Ludacris (haha) 

Love Shack - B52's

Sugar, Sugar - The Archies

I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry

Ice Ice Baby - Vanilla Ice

I've actually come up with alternate lyrics to One More Night... lol It's a song between me and my treadmill. haha Running on a treadmill is really a love / hate relationship. I mostly hate it, but I'm starting to love it. I like the fact that I can look down, and see my stomach getting flatter and flatter, and thats all the motivation I need to get my ass on that thing. Yesterday I went from not wanting to do ANYTHING, to running for 30 minutes and then going to work out at Curves for 30 mins. 

OH I'm so excited! I ordered myself a watch from Amazon the other day, should be here Monday or Tuesday... and it tells your calories you've burned, and keeps track of tons of junk. plus, its pink and girly. Love it. And speaking of pink and girly... I've got the tattoo itch BAD. I want an owl... maybe... or a dream catcher, I want a big one and I want it on my arm. I know my mom won't like it, but its my arm, and I'm 27! No shit, I had to do that on a calculator... I forgot how old I was! LOL Thats bad.

I'm trying not to think about the crap thats going wrong right now and just focus on the race tomorrow. But I have to touch on it a little... I got Jacob up for school this morning, went to start the car to make sure it was warm for the babies, and it wouldn't start. I fought it for 10 minutes at least before it decided to start... and then chugga chugga for a minute before it started idling normally. My husband is my mechanic and hes in New Mexico till the 13th! He says it sounds like my fuel filter is trying to take a shit.. woohoo! Just what I like to hear. Not only that, so, a few nights ago, my bathroom flooded. Allen told our landlord that the drain pipe was rusted and bad and he needed to fix it... well the landlord sends some booboo ass plumber over here who resets the toilet for some reason, but says theres nothing wrong with the bathtub. Last night, it happened again! So, my landlord comes out today, and looks for himself, and low and behold, he says the drain to the bathtub is rusted out, and hes going to have to put a new tub in. Well.. thats what Allen told him a week ago dang it. =-\ I'm super irritated at this point. I woke up this morning with a giant headache and possibly a sinus infection. SO STUPID! I'm running tomorrow dang it. regardless. 

I wonder if I'm going to get a number to wear. lol All I know, is I'm going to eat a turkey leg and a funnel cake before the day is over. THAT is a Promise. Bout to text LeaAnne and figure out where we're meeting and junk! I'll post again tomorrow if I haven't died. 

4 Days and Counting!

So.. I have 4 days till my 5k and I'm pretty excited. I think. Maybe I'm mostly excited and partly scared... Maybe mostly scared and partly excited... I'm not sure. I just hope that I can eat the funnel cake Lea Anne is going to buy me after we're done running. lol I'll take it home. :-D But I will NOT be sharing with my kids. It's mine. MINE! 

Thats a picture of me, and my son Jacob, at his 4 year birthday party at Chuck E Cheese. I don't know what I weighed at this point, but it was in July of 2009. I might have been around 4 months preggo with Hailey but still... under all that fat, you wouldn't be able to tell anyways! 

I can NOT believe I let myself get that huge. Food is a horrible horrible thing. Actually I'm lying... Food is delicious. :( Ok, I have to stop thinking about food. lol it's making me hungry. 

So I weighed and measured the other day. I don't remember exactly which day, but my BMI is now under 30. I set that goal a while back and kinda forgot about it until the other day. lol Scoooorrrreeeeee. 

OH! I'm already going to have to get my wedding ring RESIZED. I just got this thing in October! I want to take it and have it sized again, but I don't want to be without the damn thing for 2 weeks. lol I should take it off next time I weigh in, it's probably throwing off the scale. HA! 

BAM! listen to her! she's damn smart. (also.. listen around 4:08) 

Go Get It! :D

10 Days!!! WHAT?!

I'm freaking out. I'm running a 5k in like 10 days. I'm not ready at all. lol I sure don't feel ready that's for sure. My goal is to just finish it without passing out. I got some new shoes today though, so hopefully that's going to help.... lol nah.. I just gotta run on the treadmill everyday from now till the day of the race! Here are my new kicks...

They're soooo comfortable on my feets while running.. MUCH better than the FILAS I was running in. So far anyways. After income tax comes in, which should be a few weeks into Feb.. I'll be gettin me some Asics! I've got my eye on some already.. They cost a slight fortune though. Man It'll be worth it though. I do know I need to get a new purse.. I'm thinking of the Coach or Dooney variety. Especially after my weigh in tomorrow. I THINK it'll be a good one, but I'm not going to get my hopes up yet. As long as I don't GAIN weight, I'll be ok. 

My coach, and friend Lea Anne is doing a weight loss type vlog on YouTube.. I'll post a video of hers on here so you guys can see how awesome she is. I wish she'd make longer ones though! Lord knows she can talk about stuff longer than 3 minutes....

Oh.. so today I ate Burger King for the 1st time in a while... I ate a chicken sandwich w/no mayo. Didn't eat any french fries or anything, I drank water instead of soda or tea.. and holy crap. I felt bloated and gross for like 3 hours. I know fa sho I'll not be eating there or any other fast food place any time soon. I haven't been keeping myself from foods or anything other than fast foods that are super greasy. But this was just too much. I couldn't wait to go run it off. Thats for sure. 

I'll scan my paper from my weigh in tomorrow if I remember/have time.. I'm damn excited. 

OH on a GREAT and EXCITING note, Hailey is almost potty trained! She is in diapers for bed time and nap time and thats basically it! woot woot! 

New Year,... New Motivation!

It's been way too long. I've pulled my laptop out of the corner and brushed the dust off of it. I can't wait to get a new one this tax season. I had to update anyone who reads this and let them know I'm not giving up! I was a little discouraged a few months ago.. I even went from October till January without really working out much. I stuck to my portions and tried not to go overboard with Holiday goodness. My metabolism saved my progress. Somehow when I went to Curves Jan 3rd I had lost some inches and 2 pounds! 2 Pounds in 3 months is NOT awesome by any means, but considering I LOST weight during the holidays and didn't pack it on, I'm proud damn it.

So, here I am, a year after my journey began, and I'm so close to my goal I can taste it. 125 pounds will be here before I know it. I hope! February 9th at 11am I'll be running a Funnel Cake 5k with my awesome trainer from Curves, Lea Anne. I'm scared. No lie. lol I've been on the treadmill the past 2 days getting ready for it. and I'm dying at 1 mile. I just want to finish it. I don't want to be in LAST place... but yeah, I totally might be. lol I'm excited to try though. 

I'm down to 140 lbs. Thats back to what I was at right after I had my first kid almost 8 years ago. This month's weight loss is going to be a big one, I was at 151 lbs Jan 3rd. My Wii fit says I'm 140 lbs now. I still have a few weeks before I weigh in again too. I've been drinking nothing but water during the day, except with supper. I have a glass of sweet tea because I feel like I have to. 

So, since I last updated, Allen and I have gotten married, finally, and went on our honeymoon to Port Aransas. We were up with the sun on the beach every morning and sometimes early enough to see some stars disappear as the sun was coming up. We had a freaking blast. 

This is us on the Lexington after we ate lunch. I had an AMAZING chicken salad sammach. 

This is a pic of the sunrise I took. It's crazy how many people were out taking pics.

We got to go to the Aquarium and see some cool shows. I even got to pet a Sting ray. 

This was a view from our room. 

We had an amazing time and can't wait to go back. Hopefully for our 1 year anniversary we can go back and I'll be at my goal weight. I'm super excited about how far I've come already. Not much more weight to lose, now if this stupid C-section scar would cooperate and let my belly flatten up, I'd be thrilled! I'm not sure how much its going to tighten up considering I've had 3 C-sections but I suppose we'll see. I'm not opposed to getting a little tuckage though. lol Only AFTER I've lost the weight I need to though. 

Well... hopefully within the next few months I'll have a new laptop and be able to update more. For the 3 people that read this. LOL :) Time to go potty train my 3 year old some more. Or try anyways. 

Measurement day! First and Last.

I was weighed and measured yesterday. I'm not SUPER disappointed, because I know that it could have been worse and wasn't completely my fault. I weigh the same as I did last month. 156. My inches are still going down, which is GREAT and I lost like a pound of body fat so I think I'm carrying a lot of water weight. Now that I'm able to work out again, I'm going to do it! lol I need to get back into the frame of mind that got me to 156... 126 here I come! 

I need to focus again on my portion control., I've gotten lax with it because I felt like "this is what I usually eat, I don't have to measure." Bullshit. My eyes are bigger than my stomach, and I'm going to start using my dang measuring cups again. With Allen off on weekends now, we order out more too. So, I'm going to either STOP that altogether, or let him get what he wants and I'll get subway. I have been making my own samaches at home recently., Wheat bread, toasted, with provolone cheese (reduced fat), chicken breast on the bread as its toasting, add lettuce, tomato and a tea spoon of miracle whip. Saves money and is just as good. LOL :) 

I'm going to have a bad ass breakfast tomorrow for me and the kids. Eggs, Turkey Bacon, Oatmeal and toast and jelly. (toast and jelly is for kids.) and TONS of water! Excited already. :) 

So, I'm getting kinda stressed about the upcoming weeks. My birthday is in a few days, Allen will be going to NM within the next week, we're getting married 10/11/12, so we have to buy our marriage license. SOON. Side note, those things are freaking expensive! in Texas its $75.00! Killin me. Anyways., then we're going on our honeymoon, which will be AWESOME. No idea where we're going yet, but I know it'll be 3 FULL nights without the kids, and we're going to drink. I'm pretty sure I can get Allen to bring our xbox too so we can play Halo. LOL lame. We're not exactly rollin in the dough though. OH and my moms moving to a house about 25-30 mins away! I don't think I ask her much to watch the kids now, but I'll never get a break with her being that far away. LOL I need a daycare that will watch them for like 2 hours a day, and not charge 400$. 

Thats nuts. N.U.T.S. 

Gunna get ready to go to Curves, I've felt SUPER lazy today. Gotta go change that. 

I need this! 

Holy Crap... What happened?!

I haven't really worked out in 3 days. Not Wednesday, Thursday or Saturday! I feel super guilty.. I haven't really been bad on my diet though. I've eaten healthy sammaches at Subway, and my tilapia with rice. It still worries me when I don't work out for a few days. I've worked super hard to get this crap off, and I'll be damned if I let a little pain make it come back. 

We got a rescue kitty today. His name is Skeeter. He's GOT to be the smallest 11wk old kitty I've ever seen. 

I've never really posted a before picture of me on here.. and I should. I just hardly have any. I never really took pictures when I was 193lbs. I was the one TAKING the pics. Lets see what I can find. 

This is one from December of 2011. It's really hard for me to look at it. My house is a mess, and I'm... I'm huge. O_o

 This... is like July of 2011... I honestly didn't even know I had this on my computer until just now. I'm appalled at how big I had let myself get. We had just left a Chinese buffet in Seguin Tx. *Places I do not go anymore*

This is JUNE 1ST 2012. I started this weight loss Journey January 23rd 2012. I'll post another pic of me more recently soon.. I just gotta get an area of the house clean. LOL :) 

Its freaking 12:30 and my almost 27 year old going on 60 year old body wants to go to bed. Hopefully this dang kitty doesn't do anything too annoying tonight. Hes already proven to have VERY good lungs. O_O

........................Punching Kittys is BAD. 

ps.. going on a bike ride tomorrow, AND running a mile. Maybe not a 14 min mile, but, a mile. :D