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Friday, March 20, 2015

Snacking is Stupid.

So, I've been doing good on the working out... now if I could get the SNACKING under control I'd be golden. I have to keep myself busy constantly. When I'm sitting on the couch watching TV or something with Ethan, I want to snack. Usually I'll go for pretzels... which is GREAT but... I highly doubt I'm only eating one serving. O_o Based on MyFitnessPal I'm meeting my calorie goals every day, but who knows. I'm not drinking NEAR enough water. I know that for sure. I need to get a big nice awesome water bottle. The last one I had, I would drink water constantly. Maybe I'll find something on Amazon soon. 

Monday I have to go to the hospital for a little bit of blood work, and then Tuesday I go in for my procedure. I'm kind of excited but kind of not.. The dr. was telling me that because I have my tubes tied, there is a 40% chance that this could make the pain worse. O_o He said if that happens, our only other option is a hysterectomy. Hopefully I still have some kind of insurance when that... or IF that happens I guess. 
I'll try anything though at this point. If I have to go through this before anything else can be done, then so be it. At least this dr. wants to do SOMETHING and not just throw his arms in the air because my tests all come back normal. Whatever is going on with me is NOT normal, and needs to be fixed. 

I also have a podiatry appt Friday! THAT is exciting. My foot has been KILLING me during my elliptical workouts. Imagine putting a marble in your shoe... and walking around on it all day while it's stuck in the ball of your foot. Feels real good. O_o 

I am going to try making healthy (ish) enchiladas here pretty soon too. I'm not sure how healthy they'll be but homemade stuff is usually healthier right? I'll be using non fat and low sugar and crap like that ingredients. We'll find out I guess. haha  

I'm so glad it's spring time now. I see lots of park visits with me and Ethan during the day. I can't believe he starts school this year. Gotta suck up as much play time with him as I can! 

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Podiatrists, Surgery, Crap.

There is entirely too much going on with my body right now. 
BUT.. I've lost 6 pounds since Feb 23rd! woot! 
I went to my gyno yesterday for a pre-pre opp appt, and the nurse asks me "Were you wearing a lot of clothes last time you came in?"......
Nope... just some extra fat. Thanks for noticing. 
That is actually probably the nicest way anyone has ever asked me if I've lost weight without just coming out and asking. ha-ha 

I have another appt with them next week for the actual pre-opp.. and then on the 24th I have to go to the hospital and get my uterus scarred. Sounds delightful. O_o If this doesn't make the pain better, in a few months I'll be having a hysterectomy. Crossing my fingers this works. 

In the mean time I'll be going to a podiatrist to figure out WTF is going on with my foot. I feel like I'm walking on a marble and it makes my 2nd and 3rd toe tingle and go numb. It's been doing it for a while, but I hate going to the dr. Mostly because they're constantly trying to prescribe me freaking pain meds. If I wanted pain meds, I'd buy them off the streets... at least then I'd get the good shit. Not this 800mg ibuprofen shit that doesn't work. I don't want to mask the problem, I want to fix it. 
I'm supposed to have my foot elevated with ice and shit on it, but aint nobody got time for that. With 3 kids, let me go ahead and sit on the couch all day with my foot up. It isn't really possible for me to do that. 
(you should Youtube this episode if you don't get it. Hilarious.)

So, I got a referral today, and I'll go get x-rays and crap to figure out wtf. I might have to get some kind of cortisone shot or something? Which sounds painful as shit. But I guess it's better than sitting on my ass with my foot up poppin pain killers. 

My mom has our kids till Saturday. SATURDAY! Allen and I have NO KIDS right now. I can't even believe this is happening. What do adults do with their time when they don't have kids? I'm so lost. Theres no screaming..screeching...fighting...begging for snacks. It's pretty damn weird. 

Today is also my sister from another mister's birthday.. her big 3.0. Mines coming up too in October. yikes man. yikes. 
Happy Birthday Kambria. <3 BF4L :-D

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Going Down!

So, I've noticed that I work out better when Allen is at work. I don't know... something about him hearing me struggle and grunt while working out doesn't seem appealing to me. haha! Sunday my workout suffered while he was here. Monday, 30 minutes went by before I knew it! I considered working out a little longer, but I also REALLY wanted to sit on the couch and be in silence while Ethan was napping.

So I made that happen. haha

Yesterday was another really good work out day too. I was in a bad mood so that helps. I burned more calories yesterday than any other day, which is great! Using other peoples stupidity as motivation is a really good idea. hahaha 

Here is something that is completely off the subject of weight loss... but hey, this is my blog, I do what I want. ;) 

There is a girl, who did something deplorable to me a few years ago. I've moved on from that, there's nothing you can do to make people change. So, anyways... since then, shes continually talked trash about me, (and other family members) while acting friendly to my face. All while sending me Facebook friend requests, and telling me we need to squash shit between us... but am I wrong to really not want to? I mean, isn't it up to me, whom I decide to let into my life? I feel like if I were to brush this all under the rug, she gets her way, and I'm basically handing her a knife made specifically for my back. I'm not down with that. 
She's proven over and over and over and over and over that she is the most negative person on the face of the earth... I just really feel no need to associate with her. I'm allowed that, right? 
Cuz that's whats going to happen. I don't feel like I'm holding a grudge.. I feel like I'm protecting myself and my kids from a crazy and destructive person. Thats good enough for me. 

I did something today that I said I wasn't going to do till I went back to the Dr. 
I weighed myself.
And according to my scale, I'm down 4.5 pounds! WHAT!? 
Fuck yes I am! 
I'll only go down from here... and that little bit makes me want to get on this elliptical right now and not get off till the kids come home. 
That was a lie. Maybe I only want to get on for 30 mins again. haha no matter how long I stay on, I have to wait till Allen goes back to work. I can NOT work out with him home for lunch eating a damn pizza. O_o 

Speaking of eating, It's time for lunch! I have a parent teacher conference with Jacob's teacher tomorrow... Maybe I'll update after that. Maybe.