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Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Exercise..?. Id rather eat....

I'm going to start jumping rope every day. I will have to use Jacob's little plastic green one for now but that's better than nothing. Also I'll have to do it while hes at school. Otherwise I'll never get to use it. Lol
I think were going to have to take my kindle back and get a new one. Its already frozen on me three times and that's SUPER annoying seeing as how this things like a week old. What really pisses me off though, is that ive saved a lot of pix on it for this blog. That cant be what's up tho... there's still tons of space. ANYWAYS.... I'm having issues with my diet. I wish I had a personal chef to cook healthy foods for me. It's way too easy to order take out or delivery when u don't want to cook, or get the kids out in the wind and rain. Why can't that nutrisystem diet be more affordable?? I guess I'll just have to start taking Ally again, and force myself into a better diet.
O.m.g Allen is trying to sleep because he didn't get home till 6am and ET is being the biggest ass. Hes screaming constantly, and making Hailey scream by taking her damn balloon. They're testing my patience. Uuuuugh I need a cookie!!

Monday, February 27, 2012

Blowes Home Improvement

I will start by saying for those of you who are only interested in my weight loss, there will be hardly anything about that in this post. lol I didn't go to Curves Saturday or Sunday, *They're closed Sundays.* I do plan on going at some point tomorrow. Allen will be on his 3 days off starting Thursday, so I can work out then too. I've been doing fairly well with my dieting. I'm not snacking on fatty crap anymore and I'm  choosing from the "healthy" menu when we do go out. Thats pretty much it. Oh, I bought a jump rope at Wally World, and when I got it out of the box, I dropped it, because thats how I roll. Well, it broke the end of the handle, causing the two weights that were in it, to fall out and so, now I have to take it back and exchange it for one that won't cause my arms to look retarded.
"OMG why didn't you just rotate arms!!?" Me:"OH because I forgot which arm I had used last." I already know.

In the middle of washing a small load of new kids clothes yesterday, our washer decided it just didn't want to wash anymore. It would go through the whole cycle, except the drain didn't drain. The spin cycle also decided it didn't want to participate in the washing of the clothes either. Fun stuff... We bought a new washer at Lowes online. It said it was in stock at my store, so I bought it! Allen went up there to get it, *has to be at work in an hour*  and the guys are taking their sweet ass time. They don't have it in stock after all! So, they have to refund the card the original purchase, and we have to pay full price for a different more expensive washer. WTF. We needed something like, THEN so he did it. Hopefully they hurry up and credit that shit to my account. 
We ran to Sears today, and found the SAME washer, almost 150 bucks cheaper. 
I hate getting bent over. 

My friend Lauren gave me the MOST AWESOME website addy. If you LOVE coach purses, its a bookmark for sure.

Oh, I've been scouting out pics and crap to download to my Kindle Fire, and I'll be blogging more from there now. It'll take a little bit longer, but this laptop is about to take a dump. It's been a damn trooper though. 
I ordered Allen's ring. Now I just need to keep my mouth shut till he has a day off. I'm the MOST horrible person when it comes to keeping surprises quiet. I LOVE giving people stuff, and we aren't able to just give each other crap usually, so now I'm SUPER excited. Plus I know he has NO idea. 
He hasn't decided if hes going to use that as his wedding ring too, or if he wants to get another ring for a wedding ring and keep the gear ring as just, a cool ring. lol 
Anyways... I'm tired and I want to go murder some Angry Birds while eating some grapes. As ET would say, "BAH BAH! " 

Saturday, February 25, 2012


Hmmm...... idk how much I'm going to like blogging from a tablet... may save up for a little inexpensive laptop to do this with. Unless Kindle comes out with a plug in key board? C'mon guys!

Friday, February 24, 2012

Curves Smart!! IT HURTS!

The title to this post is kinda exaggerating, I'm not like, super sore. I am uncomfortably sore in several areas though. I felt like I was going to keel over this afternoon. That stupid little key chain is going to kick my ass. haha Its ok though. I suppose its for a good cause.

I had a great night with Hailey alone. Granna (my mom) came and snatched up Jacob and ET. We had a tea party, ate salads and pasta, and sang songs on spotify. :) She is a hoot to play with alone man. Shes so incredibly ... adult like, its weird! lol

I went out to lunch yesterday with my parents and Allen and the kids, and I ordered from the "health nut" Menu! I got a 6oz steak, baked potato, broccoli, and a roll! 550 Calories! I didn't even FINISH it. Now that I'm talking about it, I really want another one... O_o ugh. 

I'm SO glad tomorrow is Saturday. I just wont have time to work out tomorrow and Sunday Curves is closed... DANG! :) Damn Key Chain.

I'm going to see how it is posting a small blog on my new Kindle Fire here probably tonight or ...something. I just want to see how long and annoying it will be to do, I'm considering down grading in the cell phone and laptop area now that I have a kindle. It does EVERYTHING a computer does with WIFI... plus all the apps and games and junk PLUS THE BOOKS! If I can blog semi-decently from my Kindle, see ya lappy, and peace out dumb ass phone that freezes all the time!    

I'm about to go outside and kill my neighbor! WHY do you feel the need to rev up your truck at 10:35PM ??? I understand that your truck is NEW.. but IDGAF. If he wakes Hailey up, I'm going to be seriously angry. Shes in her new toddler bed, so that little hooker will be up trying to play with toys n junk. 

OH NO!!! I'm having a fat attack!!!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

I keep getting distracted!

I kept meaning to update this blog and then things would happen and I would get distracted, only to come back needing to change EVERYTHING to add IN what had just went down. SO. Here we are. Starting again. lol

So, TODAY I went and worked out again. I was going to buy the key chain thingy Curves Smart, so, she gave me the key chain and showed me how to plug in everywhere... OH and btw, I burned 241 calories doing the circuit once hardcore. I'm sore all over again! I think the Curves Smart thing is going to kick my ass..
Thats the screen you see at the end of your workout, and it'll have little pin points on where you're body got an awesome workout, and where you need to kick it up a notch. *Another Emeril Reference* The love handle machine that I HATE says that I suck, basically. After a few workouts, Leann said that the person on the screen will get smaller too. haha thats AWESOME. I can't wait to see that.

OUR INCOME TAX MONEY FINALLY CAME IN TODAY! We got a lot of shit taken care of too! Bills caught up, Allen got a new (used) truck. (THAT story, is a blog within itself. I'll get to it tomorrow.) Got a Kindle Fire, and some clothes and junk for the kids. ALSO, got Hailey her toddler bed. 
hahahah does that picture really surprise you? I'll try to get that done asap :) Once done, a pic will be up lol.

I'm playing Farkle with Allen on his new Kindle Fire. He LOVES it. I'm glad that he'll have something to do in his truck other then just sit there. He can download movies or books and not be bored out of his mind. lol There is just no way hes going to start buying shit up with that Amazon business. lol He wants to start reading the Alex Cross books from the beginning... so tomorrow hes going to download Along Came A Spider and start! Books are SO CHEAP! well... Technically, you're only buying the license to read the book. You're not actually BUYING THE BOOK. Did you know that? Yep, it's in their user agreement. So, if anything happened with the movie, or ... just for whatever reason they wanted, they can UNdownload the book from whatever device you have. Read it! ITunes is the same. Cross my heart! 

Monday, February 20, 2012


I went to Curves this morning... As I've said before, I do NOT like going in the morning. The reason for this is because the people are different. This morning, I went and started working out, and on my second time around the circuit an old lady came in. She was probably about 88 years old. I applaud her for getting out! The wind is blowing like crazy and well, shes super old. Anyways, for the rest of the time that I'm working out, all I could smell was Bengay.. or IcyHot, I'm not 100% sure.
 I worked out HARD today too. My heart rate was 147 the first time around the circuit, so the second time around I kicked it up a notch (Emeril reference) and the next time I checked it, my heart rate was 159. Which is where I like it to be since it means I'm burning more calories and FAT. I talked to my friend Chris today, and he's been researching a lot of stuff about diets and food and stuff, so he's going to email me some tips. He drinks a gallon of water a day!!! I don't even drink one BOTTLE a day usually. I have today though! I've drank a whole bottle so far. Whether that goes up to 2 or 3, we'll see. LOL It's not that I don't LIKE water, it's just, I'd rather be drinking a Diet Dr. Pepper.. or Big Red. haha!
It seems to me, that I'm going to have start making water a large part of my life. 

So. we're still waiting on Allen's income tax. It was accepted February 2nd and it now says we may get it on or before the 28th. Are you serious? Whats the point in doing it as early as possible if it's going to be held up? I filed MY taxes and was accepted around the 8th or 9th, and I've already got the deposit pending in my checking account right now. The IRS is really annoying with this kind of crap. 

Here are some more pics of my family. :) 

this is what ET was doing before I saw him.....

And then....
He charged! 

Here are the three stooges.  When ET sees someone laying down, he HAS to go lay down with them. Also, Hailey was only there to slap Jacob's forehead. 

Yes.... she IS that mean. 

Just got back from Jacob's dentist appointment. His teeth are doing really good. He may have to have one of his fillings redone that we had gotten in Seguin. Go Figure. But other than that, no new developments. She did say hes got some teeth coming up in the back, and his bottom teeth should be falling out soon. Which means we need to save up lol

For supper tonight, I think we're having something with Hamburger meat. I may look up some recipe online to see about low fat or more healthier meals than like, Hamburger Helper. :)

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Rain Rain, GO Away!!

I LOVE all the rain we've been getting lately, but man, I have stuff to do, and getting a 1 and a 2 year old out in this weather only leads to disaster.
So, Allen got a phone call last night, and apparently, if he wouldn't have e-mailed whoever he emailed yesterday about his check, he wouldn't have received one at all! They told him "someone, somewhere, dropped the ball, and the two new guys weren't issued checks at all. " Allen, of all people, is of course one of them. They also said "Please don't think this was taken lightly, we have your check on route to San Angelo right now. Someone will call you when it comes in, so you can go get it." AWESOME .... too bad it didn't get in till 11pm, and he had to wake up at 4am to be on location on time. lol.

Its all good though, he went last night and got the check, now, all I have to do is go deposit it. Easier said than done. O_o
I'll not be going to Curves today. Its raining HARD right now, and they're only open till 1 today. Its not happening. I'll have to do something at home... like, play the kinect adventures game. lol Jacob will like that, the babies will like it, and I'll get to jump around and do squats! lol
I have to clean up this living room and get ready to head to the bank. Mickey is coming over to sit with the kids while I run to deposit Allen's check! WOOT!!!

Friday, February 17, 2012

Its the fu*#ing Catalina Wine Mixer!

I went to my child support mediation meeting thing this early freaking morning. lol 8:15am is VERY early for me to be like, out of the house with make up and junk on. Being a stay at home mom for such a long time has me spoiled. I usually don't take my pj pants off till at least 10am. Dead Serious.
 Thats the cutest dog ever. Almost looks like Brookes Sweet Pea.
Jacob's "dad" got our child support established, its all legal and crap now. Once our income tax comes in, I'm going to spring for a lawyer, which should proove to be a little less expensive now that I've taken care of the child support portion. Less that they have to do type up I suppose. I wish I could just find a lawyer willing to go with me to court, because it's not like we're fighting for anything. We agree on everything, even child support.. I just don't see how its fair, for me to pay an upwards of $1200.00 for someone to type up a few papers, and go with me into the court house for a judge to say "ok, you're divorced." Ahhh... another one of those "If I would have known then, what I know now" situations. dang it.
Hey.... Does anyone know when another Alex Cross book is going to come out? I need to know. This is the last one I found... and I need it. Is there another book before this one?? Dang.

Ooh.. And here is a pic of Hailey's thumb tonight. This is after having it bandaged, and 3 doses of antibiotics..
Lookin better already!!! :-D

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Fixing the car in the RAIN!

Allen had to fix his car, and enlisted my help. =-| It was raining. Oh well though, rain is welcomed! lol OK, so I went to Curves this afternoon like I said I was gunna! I worked out hard today too. My heart rate is a LOT lower than it was. I think I said this previously too, but I'm proud of it! At first it was a good... 167ish... now it was around 150. I can't WAIT to start the Curves Smart too.. So I can see just how many calories I'm burning per day, and how many reps and crap I do on what machines. I think it'll help to SEE my progress day to day.
We had chicken tonight, with mac n cheese, carrots and corn! I ate a good amount of the veggies and about 4oz of chicken and like 1/2 cup of the mac. I drank sugar flavored water infused with Tea extract... lol that needs to change as well... not so much sugar in the tea. :-\ 
Oh, so I called the dr. today about Hailey's thumb, and shes got some kind of fungal infection or something... The bottom portion of her nail is clipped back but it looks like theres more under the cuticle. Hopefully the topical stuff they gave us will work on that.. Shes also taking an oral antibiotic as well because that was her thumb sucking thumb. If its not better in a few days, we have to take her back in, and they'll have to cut it open and drain whatever is in there, out. 

I have to be up early in the morning for my child support hearing thing. 8:15am! that means I have to be up by 6, get ready, wake jacob up at 7, get him ready and off to school by 7:25, wake the babies up, give them their milk, change their diapers, throw them in the jeep and drop them off with granna by 7:45 SHARP. Hopefully that will give me enough time to park, and find my way across that huge building. EEK! 

Staying On Track... For Real This Time.

I've been slacking off a lot. I feel like I'm letting myself down. This means, I'm going to start being SUPER serious on my diet. I've got a food tracker on my phone, I've signed up at, where I can count my calories, fat, sodium, protein, carbs, water intake and exercise throughout the day., I've switched my soda from ...regular, to diet.. I'm still eating stuff I want to eat, as long as I can find the nutrition facts on it, and it fits in my "calorie budget". I've also posted a new widget from my livestrong account. Over to the right I do believe, should be how much weight I've lost. (it's starting from today I do believe since well, I put in today's weight.)
Where is my easy button??

OH so, I was talking about Hailey sucking her thumb in the previous blog post... well here is the pic I said I would put up.. I honestly have no clue what to do. I could try vinegar I suppose.. since I need something that will taste bad, but not burn it...
See, its horrible looking! Its red because I guess the nail is coming up from the bed and out of the cuticle. It looks like I'm squeezing her thumb because its purple.. I'm not, I was lightly holding it, but trying to turn it to get a better picture. Its gotten bad in like 2 days. I noticed it was a little red the other day, but didn't think anything of it.. NOW it looks so sore and bad. I feel bad for not doing something about it then. 

I AM going to Curves again later this afternoon. Allen didn't have to be at the yard till 10, and he gets to leave at 3 or 4, but he'll still get that 12 hours of pay. Gotta LOVE salary. I LOVE it compared to him getting paid FLAG hours.. I guess its a good way for a dealership or shop to get away with saving money on employees though. ONLY pay them when they're working on a vehicle. I tell you what man, if CONGRESS or the IRS or any gov't agency for that matter, was paid by FLAG hours, they'd be GETTING SHIT DONE and not sitting around talking about it. 

I'll update again later on my Curves experience later this afternoon, as well as anything else that may happen. :) 

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Thumb Sucking!!

So, I think it's time for Hailey to stop sucking her thumb. I'll post a picture of it later, but she has it really fudged up. On her right hand, on the outside of her thumb, by her cuticle, her nail is coming up and around her nail bed and everything is super red and just looks like it hurts. So, shes gotta quit it! I just don't even know where to begin. The paci with Jacob was so much more easy, when I was ready. LOL you throw them away, bam! they're gone! You can't really get away with doing that with a child's thumb. :-\.... well.. Unless you're Casey Anthony and in America!

I went to Curves today! Allen got home in time for me to swing by for the afternoon. I'm anxious to start using the Curves Smart thing, I'll get a better work out I bet! Plus, I'll be able to keep track of the calories I've burned and how many reps I've done on what machine. OH! I noticed today that my heart rate isn't NEAR what it was when I started as well. Which I can only assume is a really good thing! I checked my inches tonight though, and I'm only down 1. I think thats because I haven't been SERIOUS about my diet yet. I've started really, sticking to it and stuff today though. I have tons of Diet Dr. Pepper stocked up.. No calories, No grams of fat.. and tastes good. Also, lots of Smart Ones foods and 2% milk. OMG Smart Ones has these desserts, they're little cups of ice cream, with pecans, dark chocolate flakes and caramel sauce on it, and HOLY crap its SUPER freaking good. They're not skimpy on the amount either. Its probably, 4oz  or so! 

Going to bed now! 

Valentines Day

I had a GREAT time on Valentines Day. I'm glad its over though! I'm so tired of hearing people say "You should love the one you're with 365 days a year, not just ONE." Just because a couple celebrates more on Valentines day, doesn't mean that they love each other LESS the rest of the year. Allen and I celebrate Valentines Day for more than just one reason. Its also when we had our very first date a whole 3 years ago. Anyways,... I'm just tired of the grumpy Gusses that come along with most holidays.

I love it. He's going to take my chain from another necklace he got me, and have it fixed... Hailey and I were playing and she ripped it off my neck. I see that kinda stuff in movies all the time, where someone has a necklace ripped off them, it HURTS! lol 
I hope everyone had a great Valentines Day! Allen and I had a great one. We had a small disagreement, got over it, took Hailey to the dr. for her ears again, and found out that shes a little liar..(more on this to come) and we had a great dinner with us and the kids here at home. I cant WAIT to get him what I'm getting him. Its getting ordered as soon as we pay off what we owe on bills and crud. 
It is made from stainless steel, and actually turns and moves and stuff. Its the PERFECT ring for him since hes a mechanic. I can't wait to get it for him. Its only $165.00 too! which is A SCORE! :) Hopefully next year, by this time, we'll be married and happy.... 
You know, if the world doesn't end December 21st, 2012. 

I've been looking for info on WHERE THE HELL MY TAX REFUND IS... and I just can't find anything. I'm getting very annoyed.. I've looked all over, and that stupid "where is my refund" bullcrap.. here is what ours says..
"We're sorry, We currently have no information on your refund status. However, please remember it may take 72 hours for info to be supplied. Also, please refer to the IRS refund schedule chart for more information on when to receive your refund. Thank you." 
THAT does not not not make me happy. I need our money now.

Now, on to Hailey's ears...... She is JUST fine. The little shit has been crying wolf saying her ears hurt before bed... Dr. Sawyer showed me her ears, they look healthy as shit. LOL! THANK GOD though, because she would have had to have tubes put in.. and I don't think I can handle that, along with the IRS stress, and bills and divorce and ...yea.. NO, I know I couldn't do that too. He said shes just starting to be a brat at bedtime because....she can. Mostly because the night time routine has changed since Allens at work now when she goes to sleep. He doesn't bathe them, or help put them to bed anymore since hes gone at that time of the night. He said that because of that, she could be 'acting out'...which seems PERFECT since that would be her MO. O_o
Hopefully she'll get more used to it as time goes on, and she'll stop saying "mommy, my ear hurts" constantly just to stay up a little longer. 

Now, I have not gone to Curves in a few days. Yesterday, I fully intended on going, and then we had to go to the store again, by the time we got home, it was time to fix supper, and after supper, time goes by REALLY fast. After supper, we put the babies in their baths, one of us bathes them and brushes their teeth, the other gets their beds ready and cleans up a little, get Jacob in the shower, make sure he isn't screwing around instead of brushing his teeth, Put the babies in bed, read to Jacob and get him to sleep. By the time everything is said and done, its 7:45-8:00 and Curves is closed. I don't like the Morning people much at Curves. Or I didn't the other morning... Anyways, I'm going today... and probably all week. Allens working day shifts this week so he'll be home around 3 or 4. We don't have our TAX REFUND so we have nothing to do, So i'll be able to go. LOL

Monday, February 13, 2012

My Goodness!

It has been a few days since I've posted anything of any real relevance. lol. Today, I'm going to work out. I didn't go Saturday because they closed at 1 and Allen had to go into work early, so I didn't have time. I feel like on the days that I don't go workout, that I gain everything back that I've lost. Which SUCKS. I know its probably not the case, but I feel like it is. I'm getting better with my diet too! I'm not eating after a certain time at night, and also, I'm eating less food at a time. I'm also eating those smart ones that have lower fat and calories and stuff.. they're pretty good.
I think I've decided I'm going to go ahead and buy a year with our income tax. This way, I'll get the curves SMART little, key thing for free. It holds all of your info on it, how many calories you've burned, your heart rates, the reps you've done on the machines and stuff...
Plus, at the end of your workout, you go and plug it into the little computer system they have, and you can actually see the skinnier person thingy thats supposed to be your body. lol I for one, can't wait to see that person on the screen go from a huge big blob of crap, to a skinnier version. The Stephanie 2.0 haha 

Our income tax should be coming in soon... like, on the 15th soon. IT BETTER! I mean, I know that everything is telling me that it'll be this day and crap, but its STILL the Government. We have pretty much all of our income tax spent already too.. I'm sure all of the US does. I'm sure a good majority of the US is using it for what we're using it for,..Bills, and getting stuff caught up that we really need. 
 Our main issue was that we were out of work for about a whole month! If that wasn't the case, we could be using this money for some frivolousness. 

I've been telling Jacob since before Hailey was born that we're going to be going to Disney World when hes 8. This started when we lived in Austin and we used to go to the Disney Store at the mall a lot. Now there are Hailey and Ethan who would need to go too... Next year, HOPEFULLY, with the job Allen has now, we'll be able to set aside our income tax and put it towards going to a place like that! I know we would ALL love that. Even a Disney Cruise! They have babysitters and all kinds of stuff! 
 I'm thinking a cruise because they don't have the roller coasters and crap like they do at the park. Jacob isn't a... roller coaster type. We took him on a roller coaster at 6 Flags this past summer, and forget it., that kid almost pissed himself. He was screaming and crying... and it didn't even go upside down or anything. It was the Roadrunner Express ....

Now, I'm going to get on google and find out just how much a few tickets will be for a Disney Cruise. We're going to start saving for it! ESPECIALLY if we're going to be getting almost a grand a week with Allen's job! 
Right now, I have to call Hailey's dr. and see whats up with her ears... she's still saying that they hurt. This will be like 4 solid weeks of ear infections and I can only imagine that having them for so long isn't good for her ears. See you all later after I work out! 

Friday, February 10, 2012

Not my usual post.. Sorta weird.

OK... now, let me explain a little about me. I have an overactive imagination, and I get REALLY freaked out by a lot of things. Paranormal shit scares the living hell out of me.. as does alien shit. Conspiracies get me all riled up and I think about them for days. I believe FULLY in GOD and do not doubt for one second that hes  with us,.. however.. I do let things get the best of me. Right now, I'm tripping balls. Like... woah. Just, take a gander at this video a friend of mine posted on her Facebook. I knew I shouldn't have watched it, but against my better judgement, I did it anyways. Some of these clips, are really really bothersome to me, and I was all, clammy, and almost shaky while watching them!

See, now this stupid video... at the 8:19 mark has a phone call from someone who says that they are a former employee of Area 51. On the phone hes sobbing, and sounds, genuinely frightened, to me, anyways. Hes talking about the Government knowing all about this stuff going on, and he says there are safe places in the world where we could be evacuated to, but no ones doing it. Could these places be the FEMA camps popping up everywhere? FEMA is Emergency Management yes? Disaster relief or some crap? I no longer think that its because the Government is "out to get us" I'm not sure thats what I ever really thought to begin with really. I do believe the Government knows a LOT more than they tell the public. I would assume it would be to keep from having people FREAK OUT. Seeing shit like this, and not knowing what the heck is going on is worse in my opinion. For me anyways. 

And then, they're are all these videos of these creepy ass sounds being heard all OVER the world.. Allen says it sounds just like the War Of The Worlds movie... Hes right, they do. But that doesn't mean they're not real right? I mean, what if we just coincidentally made a movie about aliens, and made up some noise that we thought a UFO might emit and we were right? Its a far fetched idea... I know, but hey, it could happen. Here is a video of Amarillo Texas, I listen to this radio station ALL the time, and the guy has to YELL over the noise to be heard. Yes, a lot of the videos seem fake and could very well be dubbed over with a soundclip or something playing on a cd player / ipod / iphone or whatever while the video was being taken.. however, this one seems legit. Here is one for you...


I mean, it could all totally be a huge hoax.. people like me getting carried away, freaking out about natural phenomena occurring around the world.. Whatever the facts, its CREEPY. 

 Also, side note to this weird blog im posting tonight, I did go to Curves today. I talked to the trainer there and she said I'll be getting weighed and measured again within the next 2 weeks or so. I didn't cheat anymore today. I only ate a small low fat low calorie pizza for supper, and I haven't eaten anything since about 7pm. Which could also be contributing to the paranoia I'm feeling right at this moment. Time for a bottle of water and some MiO liquid.  

December 21st, 2012 i'll probably end up having some kind of anxiety attack or panic attack. I'm not really like, scared for me or anything or whats going to happen, IF ANYTHING does happen. I think my fear is legitimate. I don't want my babies to be alone or scared. I don't want to be powerless to protect them. Thinking of THAT is what scares me. Stupid youtube. 

Have a good night! :) <3

Thursday, February 9, 2012

I Cheated! There! It's out in the open!

I ate an Ice Cream Sandwich. I feel horrible. It was a small baby one, one of the "100 calorie" smaller ones, the cookie tasted a little bitter, and the ice cream was SUPER sweet... It only had about 2gs of fat in it... I still feel really bad though! I had to eat it though, it was just sitting there, in the freezer, the other food was being mean to it, so I needed to comfort it. Then I ate it. O_O
I'll be going to work out today... Either at 3 when pawpaw can watch the babies and Jacob, or around 5 if Allen gets to come home early again. Then I'll be able to go with Brooke when she signs up and gets measured and stuff. It'll be fun to have someone to go with.. Now, if I could just learn to breathe and talk and workout at the same time, we'll be good. LOL

Now, I ran across this blog today on my Facebook Feed from Chip Coffey Psychic Medium... Its pretty funny. Funny in how its written, not in what they're talking about. They also have a pretty good message they're getting across too. Its basically about the One Million Moms, and how they need to SHUT UP. LOL I love it. If you don't know about OMM, here is what their website says... I'm not going to do the link for them though, because I do NOT want to promote them in any way.

Per their website:   "Our goal is to stop the exploitation of our children, especially by the entertainment media (TV, music, movies, etc.). Mom, is the most powerful tool you have to stand against the immorality, violence, vulgarity and profanity the entertainment media is throwing at your children. It is time to fight back!"

Ok, now, I agree, kids today are subjected to a lot more than even I was as a child... I'm only 26.. However, these idiots take the extremes. The more I read about them, the more I think, I could punch one in the face.

OH and also, I heard today on FOX NEWS that, there are now new studies that show by spanking your kids, you're setting them up for aggression, depression, lower IQ scores, crap like that. SERIOUSLY? I was spanked quite a bit when I was a kid.. I'm not saying that I was like, beaten or anything, (although I'm sure I thought thats what was going on when I was 12.) But I think I'm pretty well off. I mean, I graduated HS, I was in some advanced classes my SR. year before I got lazy and dropped them like a bad habit. I'm not depressed and I'm not aggressive. If ANYTHING, I want to run from confrontation! lol I cry if I'm too excited and I cry if I'm sad, or mad, or upset, or frustrated, or watching a television show... (last night's Mobbed got me,.. stupid Howie Mandel.) I mean, I think I'm a pretty well rounded person. LOL for the most part. I don't think that spanking children is going to harm their overall mental health.. I'm talking about spanking guys.. not BEATING.

I don't think you should ever hit your children with ANYTHING other than your OPEN hand, and usually, on the hand and or buttcheeks works. These moms that I see sometimes that slap their kids in the mouth, man I want to do the same thing to them. The MOUTH?! really?! For shame.

Also, this whole Feds announcing that there is a 25 BILLION dollar settlement over Foreclosure abuse is kind of pissing me off. I used to work for a mortgage company, in the foreclosure dept... I know how rough people have it out there. Now, they're offering a reduction in people's mortgages by 25k. ONLY IF YOU'RE PAST DUE OR HAVE BEEN PAST DUE FOR A HOTT MINUTE. I find that extremely aggravating and STUPID. If you're going to HELP someone, HELP EVERYONE!!! A lot of people have been KILLING themselves to stay current because they're scared of getting dings here and there on their credit report. According to this, they STILL get no help,. Why should someone have to RUIN themselves before people are willing to help? RIDICULOUSNESS.
 (Which is also a good TV show on MTV if you like watching videos of people doing stupid shit. comes on Mondays at like, 8 or 9pm CST. )

OK,... im sorry... this was long and I had a lot to bitch about. I'm going to work out in a few hours, and the kids should be waking up from their naps, ready to crush the world. <3

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

The Man Keeping Me Down....

I'm sorry I haven't updated anything in a hot minute. Yesterday was the first day of Allen going back to work and me dealing with the kids, house work, dinner and baths/bed all alone. Well, since he worked in the oil field last July. Anyways.. There is a lot to say in this post, so I'm sorry if you're eyes get tired half way though. I'll try to keep it entertaining so you're not finding yourself picking your nose or something else more fun.

For starters.. I'm PISSED. I usually use Country Crock Original because its good,. period. Its just good... so to start my new diet and all that bullshit, I had decided to go with another butter that advertises "LOW FAT" and is generally supposed to be better for you because its NOT really butter......
I'm super annoyed with I can't believe its not butter! More like, I cant believe you're buying this because we're big fat stupid liars and the butter you're using is better for you than this!!!... let me show you an example. 
Country Crock Serving Size - 1 TBSP.
ICBINB Serving Size -  1 TBSP
same. same. same. seems cool so far right? well lets continue...

Total Fat CC- 7g per serving... eek! Kinda high...ok.. surely ICBENB will be different......
Total Fat ICBINB - 8g per serving. 

I know its just ONE Gram difference.. but 1 gram is A LOT when you're trying to CUT IT DOWN from what you're eating already!!!  That isn't all though,..lets continue again...
They have the same saturated fat, same calories, same numbers on almost EVERYTHING minus "Monounsaturated Fat" which ICBINB is the loser AGAIN for having 2g of that, and my CC butter has 1.5g. AND my CC butter has Vitamin A, D, and calcium! ICBINB DOESN'T. Fuck you I Can't Believe It's Not Butter! LIAR!

I'm done with that shit... Pissed me off. Now I'm going to eyeball my foods really well since I know they're lying to me now. 

I didn't go to Curves yesterday.. I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off though, so I'm sure I got a little bit of exercise. The kids were playing out in the back yard while I washed a few dishes.. and I heard ET start SCREAMING, so I go to the garage door and look out, and there he is, butt in the air,.. and his head is stuck between the wall, and the dryer. (Dryer was not on. lol) I do not know what he was trying to reach for, or what he thought he was going to do once between these two objects... but he was good and stuck. I had to push the dryer over before I could get his head out. Hes got a nice little bruise on his cheek and ear! Not to mention all the bruises hes got in his shins from hitting them on these little plastic stairs he goes up to go down a little slide we have, it basically looks like I kick him in the legs all day. Not cool. 
I just KNOW this will be one of my kids some day.. Not Hailey though, shes too much of a little lady. She looooves lip gloss, lipstick, having her hair done, and making sure she has her hair brushed. lol. My little diva. <3 Shes come a long way from when she was a baby. :) We have another Dr. Appointment in March for her lip/ears again... I don't think they did everything that they could have done in regards to her 1st Cleft Lip repair. They didn't make sure her bones were growing properly or anything, now shes getting all these ear issues and her teeth are getting more and more monstrous... Here is a before and after of her little lip.
This was when she was a few months old. I really think she looks a lot like E.T. lol

This was right after :( I hated that SO much. 

This is my diva girl NOW. She's grown sooo much the past 2 years! Hopefully SOON we'll be DONE with her lip issues and we wont have to have anymore surgeries. 

I'm going to try to go to curves again tomorrow... I'll tell you what man, after not working out for 6 days, I thought I was going to die. ALSO, I had lost 4 inches before I didn't go for 6 days... Checked it today, gained it back! 
NOW that I wont have ANY breaks in going to work out, HOPEFULLY I can stay on track and TRAIN my body to NOT WANT these delicious foods that are sooo bad for us. O_o Right now, All I want is a Cheesy Gordita Crunch from Taco Bell...  uuuuuuuuugh! 

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Kids are so funny!!!

I didn't update anything last night.. I was tired after a long day of helping allen with a car hes working on, taking care of my wild ass children, and making a stupid 300$ grocery run to Walmart the day BEFORE the Superbowl. Thats almost as dumb as going on Black Friday or the day before Christmas. :-\

Two very funny things happened yesterday. They both involve Jacob. I was helping Allen in the garage tape up a car for a paint job hes doing, and he and ET were in the house playing Mario on the Wii. Well, he was playing it and ET was watching it. Hailey was taking a nap that she had been fighting for about 2 hours, so before we went into the garage we told him to be quiet as a mouse bc his sister was sleeping. He listened for about 3 minutes.... and then we hear cheers, and screams of anger coming from the living room. Allen goes in and sternly reminds Jacob to BE QUIET and goes back to the garage. About 5 mins later, we hear more screams and squeals.. this time from ET. Allen turns around and says "Watch, I'm going to go in there, and Jacobs going to say "It wasn't me, it was ET." before I say anything."
Allen opens the door, and Jacob says "That was ET Allen.".. The kid is such a goof. lol 

Also, I think he experienced his first feeling of deja vu yesterday. He was sitting on the couch, and Allen and I were cleaning up the living room a little bit. Allen walks across the living room with one of ET's shoes to put in the closet, and Jacob said "hey... thats like my dream Allen, why are you coping my dream?" I said "Jacob what are you talking about?" and he looked at us and said "Allens doing what he did when I was dreaming I think." He paused for a second... and said "I feel weird." LOL it made me laugh. :) The stuff kids say sometimes catches me off guard. 

Today is the SUPERBOWL!!! I'm going for the Giants I think. I love both teams, so either way, i win. LOL we bought some stuff to make Allens bean dip. Its just regular bean dip we put in a crock pot, and add special cheese and Bacon Flakes or bits whatever and heat it up. SOOO gooood.. Great dip to just snack on ALL day long. I have to remember I'm on a stupid diet though too. One chip an hour or something... 

I'll update more later I hope. Today Hailey is still running a fever so I don't know if I'll get to work out MUCH. I'll still try to do a little something though. I'm scared I'm going to gain all the weight I've lost. dang it. 

Friday, February 3, 2012

Hard work...UGH

So.. I didn't do anything today!!! :( I don't have any excuses or anything, I didn't do anything important or special to keep me from working out. As a matter of fact, I ate a bowl of spaghetti O's w/ meat balls for lunch and some pieces of chicken from Sonic for supper... maybe like a piece of toast too... OH and an Onion ring! Fried foods are the devil.
My friend Katie, who had her open heart surgery on Tuesday, came out of everything just fine. Shes going to have a crazy scar from the bottom of her clavicle all the way to the middle of her chest! I'd say that's an awesome conversation piece. lol It fixed the problem she had, and AND her Dr. did it 3 HOURS faster than he was supposed to. 3 HOURS. That is amazing. Here is the link to her site again JUST in case anyone wants to go check her blog out. 

Well, I think we're going to bed. :) bed is good. Sleep is amazing. :D

Jumping Rope!

I think I'm going to buy us all jump ropes. I like the idea of jumping rope again like when I was a kid. Jacob wants a jump rope sooo bad. Hes currently doing the Jump Rope For Heart at his school... He wants to donate as much as possible! (probably to get the jump rope and water bottle you get for donations...) Whatever the reason, He wants to raise money to help someone else. Thats a super sweet thing for a little 6 year old.

Thats his very own Jump Rope for Heart web page where you can donate if you'd like. :) Just sayin..... lol

Short and sweet! No Curves today.. but I may go walking here pretty soon. It feels good outside and its cloudy. I hope everyone has a great day!

**Allen took his drug test and physical today for the job... Starts Monday morning!***

Turning Point.

So.. Allen had an interview for a big big job today.. Hes been out of work since before Christmas really... Hes had a few odd jobs, and mechanic type jobs at the house.. This job though, is going to be awesome for us. We'll be able to catch up on all of the bills we're behind on and also hopefully pay some people off that we owe money.. (Family members have been helping keep us afloat.) It's going to feel really good actually having money in our bank account again.. I'm sure the bank will appreciate that too. :)
 I'd really like to come across this tree.. Maybe instead of 1's.. it can be holding 10's.. I won't be super greedy and ask for 100's or anything.. LOL just 10's.. and that they continue to grow. I don't have a green thumb though. :( yikes.

I didn't do anything that resembled exercising today. Well.. I chased the kids around the house today and I also helped Allen clean out the garage so he can paint this Nissan 350z tomorrow. I didn't do anything else though.. I couldn't really eat anything today either. I don't know if it was the stress getting to me about our financial situation or what, but I hadn't been able to eat anything all day, and at dinner, nothing changed. Allen made sweet and sour chicken with eggrolls, and usually on a regular day, I can eat more than I'm supposed to of this stuff. Tonight, nope. I ate like 6 bites and not even HALF of one eggroll.. Which is really good im assuming.. but the not eating for the rest of the day could be an issue. 

Did you know, that a human can only live 7 days with out water... and a whole MONTH without food? It's crazy how important H2O is to our bodies. I wonder if Kool-aid counts...?

That picture bothers me. I DO NOT like the idea of throwing my baby into the water like that. I had a hard time being pregnant just thinking about the baby not being able to breathe. I think it comes from my fear of drowning? IDK. 
An even Bigger Fear.......
Tornadoes and Strong Thunder Storms scare the CRAP out of me.. like I'll have a full on panic attack if I'm alone and sirens go off... Its hard to get the kids safe when you can't breathe, your chest hurts and your head is spinning,. 
It happened to me when we lived in Seguin, funny thing, no tornado. The sirens went off because of a flood. We lived in a booboo ass house on the Guadalupe River, and that bitch came up QUICK... like 26ft or something in like 3 hours? I don't remember.. it was ugly though. I damn sure didn't need to break my neck getting down the stairs to hide in a probably spider filled closet with 2 kids. (Before Ethan... but during the morning sickness) AND trying to stay calm as to not scare said kids, is even trickier. 
If someone... anyone knows how to have a panic attack, and still look and sound completely normal, please comment and let me know how.