Going Down!

So, I've noticed that I work out better when Allen is at work. I don't know... something about him hearing me struggle and grunt while working out doesn't seem appealing to me. haha! Sunday my workout suffered while he was here. Monday, 30 minutes went by before I knew it! I considered working out a little longer, but I also REALLY wanted to sit on the couch and be in silence while Ethan was napping.

So I made that happen. haha

Yesterday was another really good work out day too. I was in a bad mood so that helps. I burned more calories yesterday than any other day, which is great! Using other peoples stupidity as motivation is a really good idea. hahaha 

Here is something that is completely off the subject of weight loss... but hey, this is my blog, I do what I want. ;) 

There is a girl, who did something deplorable to me a few years ago. I've moved on from that, there's nothing you can do to make people change. So, anyways... since then, shes continually talked trash about me, (and other family members) while acting friendly to my face. All while sending me Facebook friend requests, and telling me we need to squash shit between us... but am I wrong to really not want to? I mean, isn't it up to me, whom I decide to let into my life? I feel like if I were to brush this all under the rug, she gets her way, and I'm basically handing her a knife made specifically for my back. I'm not down with that. 
She's proven over and over and over and over and over that she is the most negative person on the face of the earth... I just really feel no need to associate with her. I'm allowed that, right? 
Cuz that's whats going to happen. I don't feel like I'm holding a grudge.. I feel like I'm protecting myself and my kids from a crazy and destructive person. Thats good enough for me. 

I did something today that I said I wasn't going to do till I went back to the Dr. 
I weighed myself.
And according to my scale, I'm down 4.5 pounds! WHAT!? 
Fuck yes I am! 
I'll only go down from here... and that little bit makes me want to get on this elliptical right now and not get off till the kids come home. 
That was a lie. Maybe I only want to get on for 30 mins again. haha no matter how long I stay on, I have to wait till Allen goes back to work. I can NOT work out with him home for lunch eating a damn pizza. O_o 

Speaking of eating, It's time for lunch! I have a parent teacher conference with Jacob's teacher tomorrow... Maybe I'll update after that. Maybe. 

I Feel It Again!!!

I don't know if it's because I'm taking this One A Day Womens vitamin, or the workout I just had but I feel so good right now. I am leaning towards the work out though. This is the first workout I've done, where I didn't stop half way through to gather myself, and it feels really fucking good. I was so bummed when I first got the Elliptical because I couldn't make it through one program on it without basically dying. 

I did 2 today. 

Boom. 

Maybe it's a coincidence that I also charged up my IPod and had Meghan Trainor and Bruno Mars singing to me during my workout. I doubt it though. I think music has a giant impact on how I work out. I've tried watching TV while I do it and all I can think about is how bad it sucks and how much I want to sit on the couch with my feet propped up. With music playing in my ears I almost lose myself. I know I definitely lose track of time. Now, it helps that I have my IPod on the computer to the Death Machine so I can't see how long I've gone. 

Anyways... I was so excited that I did a substantial workout that I had to blog about it. haha Thats how long it's been! I'm gradually going to add more music to my playlist so I go longer and longer. maybe a song a week? That's about 3-4 extra minutes. Maybe 2 songs. Who knows yet. 

Super proud of myself today though! NOW... to plan a good filling and healthy meal for dinner that my kids will eat. hahaha and husband. Even bigger HAHAHA. O_o

The Time Is Now..... Right?

So... for the past few weeks I've been telling myself (and everyone around me) that once I get my elliptical I'm going to bust some ass and get back into shape. I got the elliptical!!! 2 weeks ago! O_o

Look, Don't get me wrong, I DO want to be skinny *ish* again... but damn that shit hurts my legs. LOL 

I watch that show on TLC called My 600lb Life while I'm on it, you know, for horrible motivation. It's really hard to do this at home though. I really liked the set up of Curves... working out different parts of my body constantly, but keeping my heart rate up for 30 mins seemed a LOT easier moving from area to area. I get bored as FACK on that damn elliptical....

Look at me... and all my excuses. I roll my eyes so much at myself it's pathetic.  

I've been logging all my foods and exercise for the past like month or so on MyFitnessPal app... 

Now if I could get my self control back, that'd be great. But I see oreos...and I'm like...

I need to get all the stupid sugar out of the house. Immediately. OH.. and WTF is up with all the damn GIRL SCOUT COOKIES?!! I can't handle those too. Stupid Stupid Stupid cookies.  But seriously... look at how freaking amazing they are... I mean.. the toasted coconut, the milk chocolate, the crumbly delicious cookie....

That stupid little cookie... I could have one if I wanted to... but I can't eat just one. I have to eat the damn box. lol... which really isn't funny.. and I know I shouldn't. If I had the same determination working out, as I do cleaning my plate... maybe I'd be skinny. Or at least in shape. 

UGH... This too shall pass... (Girl Scout Cookie Season I mean) bastards. 

Other than me being fat again, (159.. yep.. gained 20 miraculous pounds) We have internet again! So... I'll be able to update this more and get back into my groove. Maybe this was helping more than I thought. Because I was losing while I was blogging. Well, time to go to the store. Then, I'll come home, make lunch, put ET man down for a nap and get my fat ass back on this damn elliptical. 

Seriously... Lame.

I'm so distracted by everything going on around me that I've completely stopped paying attention to myself. I'm allowing myself to over eat, eat bad food, and drink soda and crap again and it is definitely showing. I had gotten my weight down to 137 pounds. SO damn close to my goal weight. SO CLOSE. 

I've gained half of it back. Half of the weight I lost.. is now back, and It happened over the course of about 3 months. I hate it. I know everyone has slip ups and down falls and hiccups and crap but this is more than that because I was aware of what I was doing. I just keep making other things more important. I do have a Dr. Appt tomorrow for my foot.. I'm having some tingling in my toes and it feels like I'm being stabbed in my foot when I walk around barefoot, and in most shoes. I'm also working towards getting a hysterectomy so there's that, but these are all excuses. Excuses that I'm tired of telling myself. 

I'm filing our taxes in a few days and we're using some of the refund we get back to get a weight bench. I think Allen is right though,. He said that I need to go back to Curves. He said, I probably won't keep up with it if I have the machines at home ONLY. I need to physically GO somewhere to get back in the groove and then do the weight bench TOO. Not only. I agree. I'm OBVIOUSLY  not able to be trusted on my own. I really really really miss Lea Anne. :( We still talk and text and snap chat and crap but she was a BIG driving force in my weight loss. When you have someone training you, and helping you, it makes everything so much more tolerable. I'll work out 15, 20 mins MAX by myself at home... when I used to go to Curves, I'd work out for an hour or more sometimes. Having someone PUSHING me to be better than I think I can be, is a huge help. 

I'm lame. I can't believe I worked so hard to get 65 pounds off, only to gain half of it back. 

Oh... the REALLY fun part about gaining some of my weight back... I now look like a sausage in ALL OF MY CLOTHES. I got rid of all my "fat clothes" because, you know, I wasn't fat anymore... surprise.. My muffin top is making a come back. FML. 

Time to get back on track... hopefully get the internet back up and running so I can utilize all the different websites I have saved for nutrition and work outs and get back into my clothes. Maybe even get down to my goal weight! Who knows! 

I need my motivation back. UGH

Long Time Coming

It's been a while since I've been able to blog! We moved into a shitty situation, and then were incredibly blessed into a new and much better situation. My weight IS SUFFERING. On top of not having my Curves.. now it's the holidays, and there is food everywhere. I'm in the process of seeing a dr. for some stupid ass crap that has been going on FOR EVER it seems... Maybe now I'll get some answers. I'm not optimistic though. At all. 

Hailey and Jacob are going to school. Hailey is in Pre K now... its so freaking weird to have her in school. No lies, I can't wait till ET man goes next year. LOL I love my kids, but after 5 years of being at home with kids non stop, I'm ready for some adult time. Job time hopefully. LOL More money time! Maybe between now and then we'll win the lotto and I won't have to get a job for my sanity. 

I still have some shitty ass internet... and we're still short on funds, so the next time I might get to really sit down and talk about whats up with my fat will be like, February. BAH! 

WiFi should be free world wide! 

Stress Stress go Away....

So much stupid bullshit has happened this month.. Like.. I don't even want to get into it, but I neeeeed to. 

So Easter I was talking to my dad's brother and he convinced me to try to make a lunch date with my dad. So I did... I texted my dad and basically TOLD him we needed to have lunch soon because I'm moving. There are things that need to be hashed out so I can feel normal again. I have been having so much crazy anxiety lately.. Like, Full on panic attacks... anxiety attacks.. whatever you want to call them. And ANYTHING can set them off right now.. Too much emotions at my surface or I'm thinking or over thinking too much... I'm not sure but They're accompanied by some AMAZING headaches. 

Anyways... We were supposed to have lunch last Wednesday, but he texted me that morning and said he had to be out of town again for work, so he'd just have to get in contact with me when he was back to reschedule. Again.... Last week. I guess my answer is written between the lines of our conversation... where I had to basically MAKE him make plans with me. 

About these episodes I'm having... they're pretty awesome. I get clammy, start pacing, or getting really fidgety, my breathing gets fast and shallow where I feel like I have to GULP for air... I literally have had to put my head between my knees a few times to keep my head from spinning off. It'll happen at the smallest things right now too... Like, I'm a bomb that's going to implode instead of explode. 

This move is stressing me the FU#* out too. Bad. Bad Bad. Our landlord is cool with us moving, I'm almost positive we'll get our deposit back with no issues... Plus we had to add 800$ onto a loan we have at the bank to extend that bitch out for another year to help with a deposit on a house... IF WE CAN FIND ONE. we've been looking... and everywhere that is available, they don't accept pets. We can't get rid of Skeeter. Period. And the other houses that we like, all already have contracts on them... not to mention the Drive Time issue has royally effed our credit even more than it was when we moved here... 

Allen's job is super pissing me off... Like,.. I feel like this whole stupid transfer was sold to me on a golden platter full of bullshit. "You'll get a raise and a promotion when you transfer" was what I was told.... Reality is completely fucking different and THAT is stressing me out and making me REALLY anxious too... Reality is, Theres just more OPPORTUNITY for a promotion... and the raise, is going to be a normal raise that he would have been getting whether we moved or not.  Not to mention He's gotten written up TWICE there already (one thing couldn't be helped.. and the other was a damn speeding ticket) and one of those write ups lost us a 700$ safety bonus. The other one is costing us 245$ out of pocket PLUS he's getting docked 3 days pay.

 AWEEESOOMMMEEEEEEEE

I can't even think about that right now.. I feel my chest getting tight and my hands getting clammy... 

It's almost nap time.. so I'll have to update more later.. this has basically been nothing but a bitch fit on paper... minus the paper. 

I'll probably have more to write about later today.. or tomorrow.. who knows. 

Oh.. also... in the past 3 weeks... we've had TWO cats die under our house. 

YES!!!!

Bigger and Better...and Stress

I'm not good with change... and boy, are there some changes on our horizon.

Allen got a promotion at work.. So, we'll be moving back down to the South Texas area. I'm SUPER FREAKING EXCITED and SUPER FREAKING STRESSED OUT all wrapped up into one. Why am I stressed you might ask? My husbands got a promotion, that's good! I know that's good. It's freaking sweet. But there are things that come with the promotion that I'm unsure of.

Like moving.

 

His company is going to pay for us to be relocated. Which is great! But, we have to find a place to live over there on our own.(A rental because our credit still sucks) We'll need a nice chunk of change to get into a house too... The security deposit, the pet deposit because we most definitely can NOT re home Skeeter. He'd be devastated and so would the kids. Then usually with rentals they want the first and or last month's rent. Plus, we're 4 hours away so it's not like we can drive around and look in neighborhoods we want to live in for rental houses. Allen has family in the area, but since I'm not even freaking sure WHEN we're moving,... looking is pointless and really discouraging right now. Discouraging because I'm not sure where to look... I don't want Allen to have to drive 2 hours one way to get to work. It freaks me out.

 

I can tell whoever is reading this... that I can't wait to leave. If I'm being honest with myself, A MAJOR reason I wanted to move back to my home town was not only because Allen had an awesome job opportunity, but because I foolishly thought that maybe, if we were closer, my dad would start taking more of an interest in my life.. in his grand kid's lives... that hasn't happened though. If anything at all, moving here has somehow made it worse. Like, I see my dad driving around... at the store... and it's like I'm a stranger. We'll make eye contact and that's it. I hate it. I can't wait to get out of here so I don't have to deal with knowing that, although we live in the same city... only about 10 mins away from each other... my Dad STILL doesn't and WON'T make time for me. Not on my birthday... not on Christmas... Not on my kids' birthday's... Moving away from here and the disappointment that comes with having a parent that couldn't give a rats ass about you is going to be AWESOME. I'm so excited. I can't even tell you how excited I am just for this reason. Also... I want to hulk smash things for this reason.

I just looked back at a crap ton of old pictures while I was debating on what, if anything I should upload... and realized... My dad isn't ANYWHERE in them. Not for the birth of Jacob, not Hailey's baby shower, or her birth, and not Ethan's birth.. Or my wedding..

Father of the YEAR.

 

A few people are worried I'll be miserable in S. Texas... because I've lived in the area before and I was VERY miserable. I hated it last time we were there. We moved into a house that... I'm almost positive should have been condemned at the time. It had been through a flood, and there was still mud and shit in the cabinets. The carpets were NASTY.. and while we were cleaning it, we found several condom wrappers... and other super weird shit. Then we moved from that dump to a house that we lived in basically for free. Thank God. It was a blessing, but it sucked. It was a two bedroom... really just a one bedroom, but we made one of the other living rooms into a bedroom for Jacob... and we made part of the freaking hallway a makeshift nursery for Hailey... and then Ethan when he was born. Lame. It smelled of old nasty smoke and cat piss too... thanks to the previous tenants. The owner of the house was great though, She didn't make us pay rent because THAT'S how bad off we were last time we lived in S. Texas. I was miserable because we had NO money, a shitty place for our kids to call home, and I was freaking pregnant with a surprise baby that NO ONE intended on having.  Yeah... I was totally freaking miserable. Probably had some postpartum depression or something a few months after Et was born too. Being in that situation would kinda cause it. Plus there were other family issues going on that have since been ironed out.

Yes... 4 years ago, I was miserable. Hands down.

 

I know it'll be different this time. Allen's got an amazing job... his bosses actually care about what he says, and about our family. They know I've had some health issues so they're trying to make it to where Allen is not gone for weeks at a time anymore. Although, with the new position, since he'll be the "new guy"... He'll probably have to work some nights. BUT I'm fine with that. He worked nights for about 3 months when he started this job... and with his new position, hopefully night shift will be C.A.K.E work.

who knows though. haha I guess he'll find out.

 

Anyways... yeah, Lots of changes, lots of stress... lots of uncertainty... and It's also caused me to get the biggest fucking fever blister on my lip I've ever seen. It's mutant. I'm pissed. I have a wedding to be in, in like 22 days... and this atrocity better be off my face by then.

 

It's almost time for Orange is the New Black... yessssssssssssssssssssss

 

 



What the heck is going on.

I'm so tired of Doc McStuffins... Holy Crap.

Anyways. So, I'm not actively trying to lose weight right now... as stupid as that is. I should have put that in past tense.. but I'm too lazy to go back. This blog is all about moving forward today. Yeah, I've gone a freaking year without losing anything. I've bounced around from 139lbs - 147lbs. I'm not HAPPY about that, but I'm thankful I've been able to keep off the other 45+ lbs. I've noticed lately though, that it seems that my body wants to start losing weight again. I'll make small tiny changes in my eating for like 2 days and lose weight. Where before, I was going hard, and not getting any results. 

I have a wedding to be in at the end of March... so, I guess I should kind of get on it. Here are some excuses I've been giving to myself the past few months. 

1. Allen's schedule has been so crazy lately. By the time he gets home, it's too late for me to go anywhere.
2. I don't have the gas to go all the way across town 3 times a week.
3. My back has been hurting a lot
4. I somehow pulled something in my left food.. and my right foot is STILL injured from when I fell down the stairs chasing the stupid cat. 

I don't know how to get my motivation back! I've been trying to find it for a fucking year. I know I have less to lose now, to be at my goal weight than I did when I started, but it's still hard. 

Really freaking hard. 

Great... Now Sophia the First is on. O_o 

Oh... so Allen got reunited with a long lost friend the other day. It was really cute. He hasn't seen him since 2005 and they were like brothers. Allen's always talked about him, and we've looked for him before.. I've looked for him A LOT. I just had no idea where to even start because Allen didn't have any clue where he would have been. Thank goodness for Facebook. 

We're working on getting him over here asap. I talked to him for about 3 hours yesterday, and it's crazy... I've never met this guy before but I feel like we're going to be GREAT friends. He's hilarious.
I'm excited to get these two together. 

So... I went to the Dr. again Monday to figure out whats going on with me and the pain I'm having.. and she basically told me that because I wasn't coming up off the table during my exam, that it must not be that bad. I was prescribed pain meds (greaaaaaat) and She was supposed to get another dr. to contact me in regards to getting a freaking procedure done.. and here we are on Friday.. with STILL no call about anything. I hate it. That dr. made me feel like I was lying about the pain... Which makes me not even want to go back to anyone. THATS why I HATE going to the dr. I tell you that I'm in TONS of pain EVERY month for DAYS... but because I didn't react horribly in the office, it must not be that bad. Not to mention, she told me all my labs and everything were normal... 

She took those labs in 2012.... What year is this now? 2014?... that's what I thought too... 

FML. 

Allen got some crazy news yesterday at work as well... Now I'm all stressed out again and my eye is twitching. I'm not telling ANYONE ANYTHING till we know more.. .LOTS more info about whats going on. Thats a lie... I've told a few people.. but only because if I didn't my freaking head would explode. 

Now... today I'm going to try to focus on drinking water. I honestly can't remember the last time I had a bottle of water. (Sorry Lea Anne... don't murder me.) 

Like I said ... This blog today... is about moving forward. 

My year of the lazies is over...

I've also decided to wash my hands of the family I have here that doesn't give a shit. 

The last time I saw my dad, was at my grandpa's funeral. (His dad) I wasn't included in anything, he walked right past me, shook my hand.... no hug... I was VISIBLY upset.. but Nothing. I spoke a little with him at the cemetery but we were interrupted pretty quickly by someone who wants him to have nothing to do with me. No call on Thanksgiving, nothing on his grand kid's birthdays, no calls for Christmas, new years, nothing. FUCK it. I'm done. It's just hard to really say that for me. Because it really hurts. 

Shit.. I probably need some kind of therapy. hahaha O_O

nah... I'm done. I'm strong. Tons of daughters don't have a relationship with their fathers. My situation just sucks because I went from extreme daddy's girl to outcast of his family. 

Thanks.

I need something to Hulk Smash.

Or I guess I could do laundry O_o

Here is to a quick month of weight loss! Hopefully by this time in March I'll be 10lbs smaller, and my arms won't look like turkey legs! 

First Time For Everything..

So... Allen and I got new phones! The samsung galaxy S3. It had an app for blogging so guess what's up!!? I can blog from my phone now.
This is by far the coolest phone I've ever owned. Lol who needs a laptop!?

Me.

I still do. Haha

So In the last blog post I was talking about Jacobs snaggle tooth... remember? About him having to take pictures... yeah we got the proofs yesterday. 

Proofs being the key word... Jacob got to school and decided he would just throw the envelope away...... thanks. NOW not only is the package I wanted $6.00 more.. I also habe to pay for shipping...which is $7.50. Yay Jacob!

Thanks kid. Gah.

I'm doing so many arm exercises in preparation for Kambria's stupid wedding. Her weddings not stupid. Me wearing a dress is stupid. A spaghetti strap one at that. Not cute.

K... oh now that I have a new phone I'm super addicted to snapchat again. Haha man its fun.

Bye!

Pretty Random... Whoop

I have a few funny stories I guess I can post on here now... I have a little more time now... 

So the other night I was putting lotion on Allen's back because he's all ashy in the winter.. and it was night time, after his shower... He got really quiet and I thought to myself... Surely he's not going to fall asleep......

 And then he did. 

Standing up. 

 He was standing up in front of the sink, so his hands were on the counter and when he fell he made a gigantic mess of everything that was on it. Ay... 

So I guess that wasn't super funny.. but it was to me. O_o 

Jacob lost his 4th tooth recently. It was a pain in the ass. I thought we were going to have to take him to the dentist because this kid would NOT pull that tooth.. I could see his adult tooth coming in behind it. (I'm talking about his top right tooth) Also... it was so so so loose, that when he smiled it would poke out the front of his lips. He had school pictures during this time... $42.00 on some snaggle tooth pictures. I asked him when he got home that day if he took nice pictures.. and he said "mom... snaggle tooth.. remember?" haha yes.. how could I forget. 

You can't see it well in this pic,.. but trust me... it stuck out a mile. 

I went to Curves for the first time since last month the other day... to weigh in.. because I haven't been since LAST weigh in.. which is BAD.. but I made the board anyways.. in Inches Lost. hahaha I don't know how.. but you know what? I'll take it. With our income tax, some of it., we're going to get Allen into shape. LOL I'm going to have Lea Anne tone him up and make him happy again. lol He's gotten a little pooch belly over the past 5 years that we've been together, and he's not happy about it. 

He's healthy now... lol

Now... changing the subject to something SUPER exciting.... 

My next tattoo!!!

I FREAKING LOVE THIS KEY. 

I don't know where I'm going to get it yet.. I am thinking on my forearm... like, where some people usually put First/Last names. 

In this general area.. but maybe more in the middle... 

Either way, I'm sure my mom will LOVE it. lol 

She hates all of my tattoos. 

They're so addicting though. They don't hurt that bad, and they're so pretty... If you get the right person to do them anyways. 

Oh man we're going to the Coast again for our anniversary this year... this time we're going to try to stay till Tuesday instead of Monday.. That Monday is always a holiday anyways... Columbus day or some shit. Anyways, the place we stay has a buy 3 nights get one free... so uh, yeah, WHY NOT? ESPECIALLY since I think this is going to be our last year doing this... Once the babies start school it'll be really hard to coordinate baby sitting for 4 days.. Harder more for Hailey and Ethan... Jacob's dad can keep him while we're gone now that he's moving back to San Angelo. But with my mom living like, 20 mins out of town,.. taking the kids to school and going to get them would be a pain.

I think we're going to save up and take the kids to Dallas to the Lego land place they have. They'll all love that. But I want to stay in a nice room, so we're going to save up for a bit. 

My way of saving up....

Duct taping an empty Quaker Oatmeal Old Fashioned Oats container and making a little slit at the top for money. Every time we have random dollars, or quarters we stuff it in there. I know I've already put several 5's and 10's in there... and Allen said he's put a few in there as well, so hopefully we'll have some kinda something saved up by then. 

LOL

Oh, I do it that way because I'm much too lazy to go to all the effort to get the money out... I put like 4 or 5 layers of Duct tape on that thing... 

awww crap... Ethan just yelled he's mad at me. I took his DVD player away because he's knocked it off the tv two different times. We just bought this stupid thing and he's already trying to break it. 

Be mad little boy... He'll forget why he's mad here in a little while. Hailey will come give me a hug or talk to me, and he'll FREAK. Dang Mamma's boy. 

turds.

Holy Crap...

So much crap has gone on since my previous post... I lost myself a little, gave up for a second.. or just got super lazy.. I'm not sure. Whatever though. I've maintained my weight at a steady 145-148 and for now, that's ok with me. I am in a wedding in March though... so I'm working towards looking semi OK in a mother fu#*ing dress. Like, a real, legit dress. O_o Not cool... AND the Bride wants me to wear HEELS. Heels. 

I hope she has someone taking video because I would REALLY like to see myself rubber ankleing it down the isle. Better me than her I guess..

I guess.

My toe still hurts from when I fell after chasing the cat.. Not sure what I did to it.. Also, when I take a step, and I'm wearing my Chuck Taylors, my middle toe tingles like it's asleep. Awesome right? haha Went to the chiropractor yesterday and I was all jacked up. No wonder I've been having migraines lately. He said my neck was all wacky and of course, between my shoulder blades till. ugh.

I need to start doing my blog again.. I did that Jillian Michael's class at Curves the other day and I like it. I like it but it's hard work. hahah Not only have I not worked out like that in about... 2 months or something, Old people were doing it too, and doing it better.. so I felt like I had to REALLY push myself. Allen reminded me when I got home, it's not like I'm 18... I'm almost 30. 

Almost fucking 30. 

Thanks Honey.

I've started taking pictures of Allen at night while he's sleeping on the couch and posting them on Instagram. They're amazing. hahah I'm tagging them #sleepingbeauty #husbandsasleep #feetgoupeyelidsgodown I have about 8 of them so far. I'm sure I'll have a LOT more by this time next month. He doesn't have Instagram... ahaha I only do it when he's sitting up and we're supposed to be watching our shows or playing cards or something... I'll look over and boom, he's sleeping. Happens EVERY night. He's lucky if he stays awake past 10pm. 

I've almost saved up $40.00 with Survey Savvy. I take these dumb little surveys for money and I'm getting excited to cash it out! lol That's money for answering some stupid questions about shopping online vs. shopping in a store... or do I shop for groceries more online or in person? Super easy stuff man. Go Here if you want to make a little extra cash by doing nothing more than clicking a few things on the computer. You're online anyways... ya know?

Well... I'm going to get off here.. We're plugging in Allen's laptop to the TV so we can watch The Croods on Netflix with the babies! It'll be a brisk 20 degrees outside today, so there is no way I'm going to work out.... I'll try to be on here to update more... I miss it.

Would You Look At That?

Holy Moley Right!? It's been years since I've posted an update. There is a reason for it. 

My kids are nuts and I have no time for anything except for during their naps, but that's when I'm washing dishes, sweeping up their crap and folding laundry. Because all of those things have to be done on a daily basis... sometimes more than once, the house immediately looks like a tornado hit it. Several times. Allen has been going back and forth between New Mexico, Home and South Texas for a while. When he's not here, It's hard to keep up with everything. lol It's go go go. 

He'll be back in this area for work soon though. Thank GOD. After the 1st of the year. His schedule coming up is really pissing me off though. He was supposed to have off from the 20th- 2nd and NOW... everything's changed. He worked 7 days in New Mexico, then had 5 days off, then had to rush to S. Texas to help them out down there because the people they're training down there are apparently idiots and need months and months of training. O_O

so... He's in S. Texas, till tomorrow night..Then he'll HOPEFULLY BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS. They're saying that he may have to go down there for Christmas.. So, now, he's had to miss Hailey and Ethan's birthday... which is TODAY... and he may have to miss Christmas. They want to shut down on the 23rd at noon, so he'd come home the night of the 23rd, be home 24th and have to freaking leave on the 25th to be there in time for them to start on the 26th. Normally I wouldn't be so mad,.. because it's his job. But the thing is, they have enough people down in that area to cover it, they are just screwing around. They have 3 new Sand Pushers that they've hired and they've been training since October. Allen only got like, 2 weeks MAX before he was by himself on a well. I'm just irritated. 

All we can do is pray he gets to keep his schedule how it is now... that leaving Christmas day crap is up in the air... but we're pretty sure thats how it's going to happen.. because why not? =-\

Today is Hailey's 4th birthday and Ethan's 3rd birthday. The years are flying by. It really just seems like a few weeks ago that Allen and I were finally getting married! They're super freaking obsessed with Ghostbusters 2 right now... I've had to watch it every day for the past few weeks at least twice a day. Followed by Rango. ugh

The toys in the bag that Hailey is holding, is a bag of Ghostbuster toys my mom bought off of Ebay. LOL Spoiled. Rotten. 

Go ahead, watch that and try not to laugh. My favorite part is at the end, when he's bending over looking at the car... hahaha

It's So Close...

First, I can't believe it's freaking November right now. Almost into the second week of November at that! I'm still fat. I lost a lot of my want to. I get so mad at myself because I'll go to get dressed for the day and put on my jeans, and not feel comfortable in them.. and it's ALL my fault. I say that to myself too... "You could already be at your goal weight if you'd stop screwing around." It's really simple when you think about it. A lot harder to actually do it. I'm all about convenience and I HATE washing dishes. That doesn't leave a lot of choices for healthy food. Not to mention, my at home cooking is probably not very healthy 50% of the time. Well... stuff like, chicken fried steak..but it's fried in Coconut Oil. We eat a LOT of baked chicken. Ugh.. I'd be 15 lbs lighter than I am right now if I wasn't lazy. Shame shame. 

So the kids had Halloween last week. They love it. Hailey and Ethan changed their minds about 39 times on what they wanted to be. I wanted Ethan to be the Hulk. For a little while, he really wanted to be Hulk too... Then he saw all of the stupid choices he had. haha He finally settled on Buzz Lightyear. Hailey WAS going to be a princess.. Then she saw the ugliest Jessie costume from Toy Story. Jacob wanted to be a Ghost Buster so bad, but no one had any costumes left by the time we had funds to buy costumes! Go Figure. Next year, I'm getting them super early... like with one of Allen's safety bonuses from work. 

Here is Et as Buzz... This was an OK costume... Could have had a real belt or something.. but he LOVED it. 

see?

Those little bats in the background, were made by my mom and the kids. hhaha Thats our only Halloween deco in the house! Lame right? Gotta start going all out now that the kids REALLY get into it. 

That Jessie costume kills me. 

Ethan was so excited to get into that train. 

He rode with Jacob because the car kinda scared me. But he had SO MUCH FUN. He laughed the whole time. Jacob said "He was laughing so hard." haha Hailey is totally thrilled as you can see...

Oh... this kids not scared of anything.

Look at that face. 

This was our trip to the Pumpkin Patch last week before Allen went to New Mexico. We ended up getting pumpkins a week before Halloween this year, and the stupid things were rotted before Trick Or Treating even happened. Stupid things. Lasted only about 4 days. 

Jacob thought these were a Hoot. 

Hailey didn't really understand what was going on.....

Here is a random picture of Ethan... eating a donuts. He's slightly messy.

This kid taught himself how to ride. His feet barely reach the pedals so I didn't think he'd be actually trying to ride it... I came out side and he was going back and forth back and forth and slowly turning himself in a circle. He needs one of his own I guess! Ugh...

Oh... so Allen was in NM last week. It was the worst week ever. I really miss Allen when he's gone. I have no adult interaction when he's gone really.. unless I freaking go shopping or something. Then I can talk to the cashier about how weird my last name is. O_o 

The kids act 100% different when he's home too. That's not what made this the worst week ever though. Skeeter had gotten into some milk Saturday night. Cats are allergic to milk! Despite what every single cartoon ever showed us as kids, cats actually can't digest milk easily. Some cats can better than others, Skeeter is NOT one of those cats. He was shootin shit everywhere. I am not joking. Literally he would walk, crap would shoot out of his ass, and he'd run away. This was happening everywhere. I had to keep him off the furniture, and out of window sills... and definitely out of the kids' rooms. It was fucking horrible. I never ever want to go through that again. Like, on top of the kids acting like jerks while daddy is gone, I have to tell them 4839 times a day "Watch for skeeter poop!!" Freaking gross. He was pooping out little Skeeter bombs faster than I could clean them up with a Clorox wipe! Leaky assed cat. He's lucky we love him.. I was ready to put him out to pasture. I never took him to the vet... I called, they told me to take away his food for 24 hours, so I did, and bam... problem solved. He only gets about 2 cups a day now. No more gorging himself in food... 

I need someone to do that to me... "Bitch, you're getting too fat, I'm taking your food away for a day.. and I'll only give it to you again when I feel ready." Who wants to be the one to do that? haha

K... There all you guys that were telling me to Blog. haha I blogged! I'll try to keep up with it.. but Allen leaves and I'm busy, he comes home and I don't get online much! 

Hopefully I lose a little more weight this next week! That'd be nice. 

Lexington, Aquarium... Fun Times.

Ok... here's the rest of the trip pictures. There is also going to be a video at the end of this blog, that you're going to freaking love. I do... Honestly, I don't really care if you do or not. haha.. it's the funniest thing I've seen in a while. 

The Lexington has had some changes to their museum. I don't like them much. I was a giant fan of the old Blue Ghost guys... like, I could have spent all day on that ship looking around.. but now there's a LOT of new stuff... and the rooms are different. It's more like a museum for the whole Navy instead of just the history of that awesome ship. They do have a Pearl Harbor exhibit now that's pretty cool... but a lot of it revolves around the MOVIE Pearl Harbor because apparently they filmed some stuff on that ship.. Not that the movie wasn't good... I'm a fan... but it's like they were more interested in the movie stars being on the Lexington than the actual reason for the movie. Eh... anyways.... 

On to the pictures. 

This is the view of the USS Lexington from the Texas State Aquarium. 

Uh Oh! Allen's in the Brig! hahaha

I think this was in the Pearl Harbor area... I don't remember. I just really really really liked this quote. 

This pic should really have been on the other day's blog. Allen and I plan on getting a new tattoo every year on our anniversary in Port A. We have a tattoo shop we go to called Voodoo Tattoo.. it's on a main street right off the Ferry. The guy that does ours, Nate, is freaking awesome. He did our other tattoos too... the Shark jaws with 10-11-12 inside. He's awesome and affordable and hopefully if we keep going back, he'll keep giving us awesome deals. :) He remembered us from last year! 

Back to the Lexington... These planes are really cool. Everything about them is freakin sweet. 

I really like these. The ones where you can see that motor behind the propeller.

THIS cracked me up... they have a simulator on the Lexington now, where you can fly, or shoot, or do whatever in air planes. and this was on about 5 out of 6 screens. 

Allen was super interested in this plane. It's got bondo all over it and has been sanded. It looks like they're getting ready to paint it. He was rubbing his hand along it feeling the body lines.. I was pretty sure he was going to stop one of the workers and ask what they were going to do with it. He's done a lot of paint and body on vehicles... so... this was interesting to him. 

These planes are just super cool... They don't make em like they used to.

I liked the paint on this one... and then I saw the little missile thing was open.....

Tommy's Toy... Nice. 

Most awesome helicopter ever! From the paint to what it was used for. 

This was on a plane. I have to say... I agree. 

THIS plane is freaking cool... it's all short and looks mean. 

Theres some missiles we need to drop on a few countries... just sayin.

Blue Angels! 

I had to wait for about 5 minutes before I could take this pic. Some stupid people with the Boy Scouts who thought they owned the joint were standing in a big group just talking among themselves and laughing. They finally saw me trying to take a picture and waved and moved over. Idiots. 

THIS is how stuff used to look in the Lexington... authentic and untouched... 

These kids made me lose my mind. I love this room of the Lexington. It's the most awesome room. The grandmother of these little jackholes wasn't paying attention to ANYTHING they were doing. There is a giant sign that says "PLEASE DO NOT touch any knobs or levers in this room. " yet they had their grubby little hands all over everything. Grandma was walking around on her phone not paying attention. I can't freaking stand that kind of "parenting." If you brought your grand kids here to show them a cool ship, get off your phone, walk around and teach them about some history. Don't let them run amok knocking into people (me) and touching shit they're not supposed to. I was enjoying my time without my kids... but I had to put up with other peoples idiot kids. I don't let my kids act like this in places... I wish I could spank other's kids for acting like that. Gah Dang. 

Another of my favorite areas. I had to wait for another little idiot kid to leave this room too. He was standing by the wheel with his hand on it looking at me like "are you going to take a picture or what?" No... No I'm not you little shit because I don't want you to be in it. I do love kids... I do... I just can't stand when parents let their kids be disrespectful and rude in public. Mine are rude and shitty to me in the house... but when we're out in public, they're nice, they listen to directions, and they damn sure don't touch shit they're not supposed to... but maybe it's because I'M PAYING ATTENTION TO THEM. 

this was new too... but it was cool... all those knots. 

Here was part of the Pearl Harbor part... Pictures of Ben Affleck and junk on the walls like he was super important during what happened. No... He wasn't. He was in a movie about what happened. That doesn't mean that he should be in a frame on the Lexington. dang. 

This was new too. 

This was new....

This was new....

THIS was the Lexington Library... But the door was closed, and the lights were off like we weren't allowed to look in there.. Bitches. I gots a flash on my camera thank GOD.. This, in my opinion, is one of the coolest rooms on the Lexington.... Thats all I have for the Lexington... It was super fun... We didn't go to the Haunting On the Blue Ghost though... that shit was expensive. 15$ per person, and it's pretty short. 

I was going to do the Texas State Aquarium today too, but That was a lot of pictures already.. I don't want to over load or make people bored. Plus these kids are about to drive me nucking futs. I've spanked Ethan three times already today and it's only 11:20am. They act like because daddy is gone, mommy has unlimited nerves to get on. No... THAT is not the case I can assure you. I seriously need to find a mommy's day out place here before I lose my shit and drop them off at a Fire Station. Neither of them know our last name and neither of them know our phone numbers or address... it'd be easy.

Just joking... I couldn't do that. Ethan called me his best friend last night. Even though, after I spanked him today he yelled "YOU'RE NOT MY BEST FRIEND ANYMORE MOMMY!!!!!" 

oh well... I'm sure I'll recover... 

Time to feed lunch to the children! Hope ya'll enjoyed my pics. 

More to come later... I honestly didn't plan on making this a 3 day extravaganza. It just happened.