My Foot Surgery!

So, in April I was diagnosed with Morton's Neuroma. I had a horrible pain in the ball of my foot that felt like a constant marble in my shoe when I walked. Allen had to modify my elliptical pedal it was hurting so bad. FORGET walking barefoot on anything. It made my toes tingle and go numb... Stupid.

April 29th I had surgery to remove it. 

Guys... there are two ways that a doctor can get this out, from the top of your foot, or from the bottom. My doctor had to go in from the bottom. I have about a 3 inch or longer incision in the bottom of my foot. Then that bitch closed that shit with STAPLES. 

STAPLES!!!!

I've had 5 surgeries in my life, none of them involved staples. Two of my 3 c-sections I had to talk the Dr. into using sutures instead of staples. It wasn't even...a thought in my mind about this one though. 

Check it out....

This was a few days after, She had it wrapped up and I wasn't supposed to unwrap it at all, but one night after a shower, it felt like a brick was putting pressure on my staples every time I set my foot down, So I unwrapped it and surprise! This is the crap I see. 

I bawled the first time I saw it. Turned my foot towards my face and immediately burst into tears, along with laughing. Allen was looking at me like, "Wtf is going on right now?" I think it was just a surprise ? I don't know.. when I was done though, I wrapped it back up and went on about my business. 

The Dr. sent me home in a boot... It shouldn't be called a boot though, It was a brick with Velcro straps on it. You want me to fucking walk on top of staples in my foot for 2 weeks? With this freaking boot strapped to it?? How about no Scott. Thank God we had gotten some crutches from my mom back when Allen rolled the shit out of his ankle... I rocked those for 2 full freakin weeks. 

Got my staples out yesterday and I am so excited. It still hurts to put pressure on it, and I definitely won't be getting on the elliptical within the next week, but she said no restrictions so, I guess I could if I wanted to! 

Here it is now...

 

Except some of the tape is already coming off. The top part, between my toes hurts so much. It sucks. My poor poor little tootsies. Now, the whole area between my two toes, is numb. I have no feeling at all between them or on top a little... it's weird. I'm just praying it heals correctly and I have no more problems. My left foot was having the same issue as my right one, but I'm not sure if I ever want to go through that shit again. 

OH... the best part? I have a chicken leg, and a regular leg now. Thanks a lot crutches. My right calf isn't as big as my left calf now. Allen noticed it yesterday. So... that's awesome. Super awesome.

But... now my foot is taken care of, and the uterine ablation I had has been recovered from so my weight loss will go down again. 

I've been eating nothing but freaking sugar and carbs lately. I'm out of control. I'm almost 100% sure I'm back up to 160! I've been down though, not out. I got a new water bottle, no feeling in my foot, a modified elliptical and a little bit of motivation. 

Like, hey, you don't fit into your pants anymore kinda motivation.  yikes. 

 Fml... 

will be the hardest and most worked for 30 lb weight loss ever. 

Snacking is Stupid.

So, I've been doing good on the working out... now if I could get the SNACKING under control I'd be golden. I have to keep myself busy constantly. When I'm sitting on the couch watching TV or something with Ethan, I want to snack. Usually I'll go for pretzels... which is GREAT but... I highly doubt I'm only eating one serving. O_o Based on MyFitnessPal I'm meeting my calorie goals every day, but who knows. I'm not drinking NEAR enough water. I know that for sure. I need to get a big nice awesome water bottle. The last one I had, I would drink water constantly. Maybe I'll find something on Amazon soon. 

Monday I have to go to the hospital for a little bit of blood work, and then Tuesday I go in for my procedure. I'm kind of excited but kind of not.. The dr. was telling me that because I have my tubes tied, there is a 40% chance that this could make the pain worse. O_o He said if that happens, our only other option is a hysterectomy. Hopefully I still have some kind of insurance when that... or IF that happens I guess. 

I'll try anything though at this point. If I have to go through this before anything else can be done, then so be it. At least this dr. wants to do SOMETHING and not just throw his arms in the air because my tests all come back normal. Whatever is going on with me is NOT normal, and needs to be fixed. 

I also have a podiatry appt Friday! THAT is exciting. My foot has been KILLING me during my elliptical workouts. Imagine putting a marble in your shoe... and walking around on it all day while it's stuck in the ball of your foot. Feels real good. O_o 

I am going to try making healthy (ish) enchiladas here pretty soon too. I'm not sure how healthy they'll be but homemade stuff is usually healthier right? I'll be using non fat and low sugar and crap like that ingredients. We'll find out I guess. haha  

I'm so glad it's spring time now. I see lots of park visits with me and Ethan during the day. I can't believe he starts school this year. Gotta suck up as much play time with him as I can! 

Podiatrists, Surgery, Crap.

There is entirely too much going on with my body right now. 

BUT.. I've lost 6 pounds since Feb 23rd! woot! 

I went to my gyno yesterday for a pre-pre opp appt, and the nurse asks me "Were you wearing a lot of clothes last time you came in?"......

Nope... just some extra fat. Thanks for noticing. 

That is actually probably the nicest way anyone has ever asked me if I've lost weight without just coming out and asking. ha-ha 

I have another appt with them next week for the actual pre-opp.. and then on the 24th I have to go to the hospital and get my uterus scarred. Sounds delightful. O_o If this doesn't make the pain better, in a few months I'll be having a hysterectomy. Crossing my fingers this works. 

In the mean time I'll be going to a podiatrist to figure out WTF is going on with my foot. I feel like I'm walking on a marble and it makes my 2nd and 3rd toe tingle and go numb. It's been doing it for a while, but I hate going to the dr. Mostly because they're constantly trying to prescribe me freaking pain meds. If I wanted pain meds, I'd buy them off the streets... at least then I'd get the good shit. Not this 800mg ibuprofen shit that doesn't work. I don't want to mask the problem, I want to fix it. 

I'm supposed to have my foot elevated with ice and shit on it, but aint nobody got time for that. With 3 kids, let me go ahead and sit on the couch all day with my foot up. It isn't really possible for me to do that. 

(you should Youtube this episode if you don't get it. Hilarious.)

So, I got a referral today, and I'll go get x-rays and crap to figure out wtf. I might have to get some kind of cortisone shot or something? Which sounds painful as shit. But I guess it's better than sitting on my ass with my foot up poppin pain killers. 

My mom has our kids till Saturday. SATURDAY! Allen and I have NO KIDS right now. I can't even believe this is happening. What do adults do with their time when they don't have kids? I'm so lost. Theres no screaming..screeching...fighting...begging for snacks. It's pretty damn weird. 

Today is also my sister from another mister's birthday.. her big 3.0. Mines coming up too in October. yikes man. yikes. 

Happy Birthday Kambria. <3 BF4L :-D